As promised , i'm here to update Neknek . =) I was almost late for school cause i freaking wake up 10 minutes late . So i rushed like mad and had no time to eat the already-prepared breakfast . School was better today , ran 2.4 today . Not very happy with the results and some others . Headed to Mac after school , SHAKER FRIES! yummy~ Went home with Joel and Jon , didnt kow that Joel stays at Euphony Garden . So near laa.. And Saffe stays opposite me , i think the same block as Jon . Bathed and slept till 7pm , woke up ate dinner and prepared for tuition . Dinner was nice today , Mum cooked dinner for us finally like after so long . Tuition was fun , revised through some chapter and chatted on Astrology . We love atstrology! Watch 9pm show , darn gan chiong can . I was like part of it , at the end when the Chief Officer die.. I was shouting "CHONG!" , when the actress didnt even shout anything and just cry . Then my Mum looked at me and i smiled back to her . *laughs* Anyhow , before the show start i heard those lion dance practising . I ran out to my balcony to check it out , forgetting that there are 2 LDAs (lion dance association) near my house . The moment i heard it , my heart aches . Tears clotted around my eyes , i wiped away my tears and went into my room to rest for awhile . =( That was a real sudden one , reminscing the days -he- told me stuffs about those LDA and the way they performed . And those times -he- called me we crapped alot with that "leave your message after the tone" thing . I really miss -him- alot . Everything is so hard now , really wish to see -him- again . *cries* My back hurts again , while i was napping now when i was toosing and turning around suddenly i heard the "tek" sound . Ouch!!


Goodnight . <3

"Come to my dream tonight and tell me how can we meet again . "

xoxo`

Tuition was cancelled today and changed to tmr 7:15pm . So late can . But no choice , i cant bear to cancel anymore cause mid year is fucking next week . School was quite sucky today , the whole morning i aint in good mood . Bum is so bad , he told me some very funny yet mean stuffs when we're messaging in the morning . Okay , we're bad ! haha . Ah tan's lesson was a free period , Geography lesson we got mad about some shows . Then English lesson was doing some marrative thingy on cancer and my group rocks . And during assembly , it was darn fun . Wei Song rocks , he is so PRETTY . Love him so strong can . laughs! My Sister , Tony Lim is PRETTY too . He's the prettiest in the whole runway . Audi's - my humps is sexaye . haha . Anyhow , on Sunday i wento watch the movie Daisy with Ah di , Mister A (he is ah di's friend and i dont know his name.) and Lynsey . The whole movie is very nice , the guy is so handsome and cool can . Daisy = Hidden Love . Cried in the night because of some stuffs i dont know , but after awhile i went mad about some gays and Ah Di went crazy because i kept telling him those "nice" stuffs . haha . And not long after when i climbed up my bed , i start to cry again . I dont know why laa . Flashbacks . Messaged Bum , and he's really nice to be there for me . =) My abrasion is so pain , ouch! Sighh.. i dont wanna have eyelid abrasion anymore . Mmmms , i gotta stop here already. Nights everyone . Love all.. <3

"I dont wanna say goodbye to you anymore ."

xoxo`

It is 2am now , Wynny is still not in bed . Naughty! Am at Godma's house today , overnight . So that i can see my preciouss , Kenneth Tee tmr for breakfast . *happified* I just finished doing up Rose's blog . Lets hope he like it . But i find the pic too big and the blog entries title fucking big . *dry laughs* He is now in his dreamland already . So i cant get his comments , shall wait till the noon . =) Anyhow , saw quite a number of people at Bugis just now . Like Bum , Lao Pa , Ah Long and blah blah blah . On the way to Bugis , i saw this young couple and their child is like 3 years old . They both looked really young . Had lotsa flashbacks , and my player played some really nice songs . I got my blouse ! Love it so much =) The gathering at Godma's house were nice and fun . Serene went mad about the yoga cum wushu thingy , Shing almost joined Serene . Xing was telling so many lame jokes and seriously lame laa . Most of the time Xp was suffering under Xing's lame jokes . While i'm messaging , thinking of some stuffs and laughing at them . Bobby was busy studying and we weren't suppose to disturb him , but i disturbed him a little while . Lynsey was engrossed with the PSP game , dont know Puzzel Bubble or Bubble Puzzel . Kw and Long was stuck to the PS2 while Ah Di helped them . I've got eyelid abrasions , thanks to crying this afternoon and me rubbing my eyes umpteen times . I had flu too . =( Weak woman . Urgh! Okay , i gotta go sleep now . If not Godpa will come over soon . Goodnight all . <3

"Your familiar backview still revolves around my mind . "

xoxo`

I just woke up , it's 13:02 . I had a very nice yet sad dream , i dont even want to wake up . But my Mum came into my room and woke me up . Urgh! In my dream , i was with -him- , my dearest . We had lotsa fun , craps and laughter together . Alas ! But towards the end , the last thing i remembered before i wake up was... -he- went missing . And similarly , -he- disappered in real life too . I can still remember i was searching for him- hopelessly . Crying and crying when i couldn't see -him- anywhere. I really miss -him- a lot .When i wake up , i quickly run down my bed and went out to the leaving room to weep . Called Edwin and told him about my dream and was crying . Edwin said i drank too much last night , it was totally outrageous . My heart sank down deeply and it is so painful . I dont like the feeling now , so painful . I shouldn't have wake up , maybe in the end i found him ? Sighh.. like what Edwin said , it's just a dream . *cries* On Tuesday night , i made a very big and crucial decison . I hope it is a correct decision . Anyway , last few days was sucky . Will be going to Godma's house later for dinner , but before that am going down to Bugis to collect my blouse . Gotta go prepare already , Ciaos .

"Hold me close , hear me cry . "

xoxo`

I'm so pissed off now ! I wanna kill her , strangle her , stab her and see her dead behind Geylang's back alley . She's a total slut! So old still wanna act young , save it laa bitch . Your hair is in such a fucking colour-combination-fail state and your face ugly and dirty like my floor mat can . Ewww.. gross like fuck ! Urgh!! Shant waste my breath and time on such whore anymore . *poofs* Anyhow , sports day today was fun and very hot laa . It was real fun ! When i saw Mr. Sim fall , tears almost burst out . I dont know why , shock and sad to see him fall . =( In a no good mood when i reach home , flashbacks , telling Edwin how many days the missing-in-action had taken place and thinking about lotsa stuffs . AIYA . Sometimes i just feel so empty and blank , and everything is so complicated . Just as expected , i cried yesterday night . And so it lead to not enough sleep and tiredness . The songs in my player just suits my mood sooo well and i felt better after crying . Sighh.. when can things be settled ? When can this whole thing have an answer ? Had something happen to you ? Are you still alive ? Loads of questions that i wanna ask you , but there's no way i could see you again . The end ???


Goodnight . *cries*

"Handle my heart with extra care , it's fragile "

xoxo`

Tmr is my school's Sports Day . Am helping out the PE department again this time , but it's fun . Wearing my class tee tmr also , CAMARADERIE ! (comment on our class tee ? just shut up .) Mmms , wento town with Shing yesterday and our legs are really tired and aching . Saw HL at Heeren and Joseph at Tangs . Was telling Shing about HL going to New Urban Male for interview , then i saw him there . Laughs! HL got the job at NUM already . *cheers* As for Joseph , i saw him on Saturday while towning with Godma already . He's funny laa .

*taps wynny*


Joseph : "hey wynny , remember me ? *smiles* "


Wyn : "huh ? ermm.. who are you ?"


Joseph : "i'm joseph .. we help out Bernard then i smoke infront of you forgetting that you dont like people to smoke infornt of you , because will pollute your hair . "


Wyn : "orh!!! i know i know!! *looks at Joseph from top to toe*


Joseph : "i still owe you a meal leh , remember ? haha . "

And our conversation goes on , it was fun talking to him and i was shock that he stills remember me . We only chatted for a few times . haha . Wento Bugis today and i bought a blouse and a bag , i so love that blouse but only can get it on Saturday . School was kinda sucky today , i hate that bitch . She's fucking noisy and her mouth need to be bleached . I hate her , whore! And to those whom have the "ignorance is bliss" is thinking , i think you all can go fuck yourself with cactus . When people ask you a serious question , dont fucking reply back with your childish "ignorance is bliss" . I know that sentence do work at times , but hell shit i'm hating it now . Thanks to those around me whom always use it . Was experiecing the deadliest monthly visitor cramp , it was so painful . Adding on to the pain was Edwin's fucking sound . He was doing this stupid sound which sound soo wrong , and i told him "i'm having cramps , not fucking . your sound is wrong.." Thank god the cramps were better around 30 minutes later . And thanks to Bum today , he saved me during F&N lesson . He sent me the most heavenly recipe . laughs! Ohh.. my legs are aching , how i wish i could have that OSIM leg massaging thingy now .. *whine* Replacing the OSIM thingy is my hands to rub those smellysmelly ointment onto my leg myself . =( I'm had lotsa flashbacks today , my tears are coming out so soon tonight . My heart being torn apart and thrown away . Silence and waiting , silence and waiting . Once again , you disappered to no where . Searching for you breathlessly and shouting out your name loudly hoping it could lead me to you . Please , no more hide and seeks please . I had worried enough , i had cried till my tears are all dried up . I'm tired of everything now . Goodnight . <3

"We promised to hold onto each other's hand and walk to the end together . "

xoxo`

I feel so bad for taking 50$ from my Dad . =( shit! Shall spend it wisely tmr then . I just finish crying as my player plays Zhang Hui Mei's - Ji De (Remember) . Was actually singing as usual , but this time as i sing , my tears clotted around and it rolled down . I continued singing and.. darn sad laa . "Wynny ah , cry cry cry . *shake head* " Anyhow , my feets are having blisters thanks to the new heels , fuck it . Towning with Godma today was fun , Kang Wei went too . And we crap a hell load out , we crack our brains for seedless fruits . In the end , we only thought of ,

-sugarcane (cause it's from the stem , silly.)


-pineapple (not too sure too.)

and that's all . We're stupid . Wento the NTUC and i asked one of the auntie that question too and she cant answer me . laughs! Am towning again with Shing and Xing tmr , and still i feel bad about taking that 50$ from Dad . But i do really need to get a bag badly and some other stuffs . Sorry Dad . *whine* Alright , i gotta sleep already . It's 02:09am . Goodnight people , goodnight my dearest .
<3

xoxo`

Alright people , forget about the previous post . I'm just so angry with that someone , but now i heck care already . Haven been updating for the past few days ..Anyhow , i reached home around 1:30am yesterday . Wento Chew's house , had dinner , Gransazers played poker and most of the time i'm talking to her aunt and cousins . Lucky , her aunt dog , was so scary laa . And everyone in the house kept telling Lucky to chase me . I was so scared and start to shout and scream . *laughs* Our class tee is here already , and whom have bad comments on our class tee , please shut up . It is a fucking Good Friday today and yet i'm stuck at home , wating for dinner with the Empress Dowager (my ah ma) later . Bored laa! I seriously hate people to not have a mind of their own and copy others .

Miss A : " actually i also like XXX brand one , thank god we din get the same pattern , only the same brand . "


-ya rrright . you are trying so hard to make me believe you .

Miss B : "my cousin bought me this XXX watch , so nice . i so like it . actually i only know about this watch when you say you wanted it badly . then i wento see and i quite like it , so i asked my cousin to get for me . "


-fuck you ! bitch~!

Knowing that Wynny will make alot of noise about the things she likes and she wants badly , and hate copyright-ers fking badly. People just love to make troubles for themselves and make Wynny hate them . AIYA . They all can just rot in hell , brains to be torn out and eaten by dogs , hands and legs to be saw and hang on the tress , then the lungs , intestines and others to be thrown into the sea to feed crocodiles . Urgh~! Anyway , am going for rock climbing tmr , i so miss those rock walls and harnesses laa . Then Sunday am towning with Shing and Xing , i wanna get a bag , notebook and some tops . I miss Kenneth Tee alot laa , last week he wento Godma house and was waiting for me . But i was in town with Gransazers and co , he kept pestering Godma to call me . Then Godma said , he left home crying . Awww.. My preciouss.. haha . For now , goodbye readers . Update laterr .. <3

chaps!!

Kenneth Tee! =)

xoxo`

xoxo`

Beach Road and towning was fun today . Met up with Kok Swee , my very good and freaky cousin . Passed him his birthday present and went off to meet the rest . The food at Beach Road suck big time , yucks! Bought shoes and jeans for Melvin Chan . It was very stuffy and warm , so i kept looking around for the big big fan to cool myself . I wanna buy that 69$ bag!!! I want , i want ! Kept looking at the bag and didnt dare to ask the price , so i sent my men over , Xiangwei ! *laughs* Went down to Far East to get jeans , Alex wento buy his coat and we all slacked around . Left town around 6+ and headed home , cause am having dinner with my parents today . Saw Kok Swee at Yishun again , we darn got fate today laa . He like the shirt i bought ! Yeah!! Reached home , bathed , changed and went out to have dinner . The dinner was so sumptuous , so yummy! We had Thai food at A-ROY Restaurant , i so miss thai food laa . Tom Yum soup and all.. So nice! Headed to POLO Club after dinner , the club where my parents love to go for jackpot-ing 4 years ago . We never go there for 4 years already , everything changed . It became so grand , met some longtimenosee people and smiled at them . My arms are aching , so painful . I guessed is because i played with the new thingy in the field , i swinged like Tarzan and climbed like a monkey . The rope is so rough and my hand hurts a lot , but it was fun . Was trying very hard to climb up , but i always slipped down . Hell.. Anyway , tmr am gonna wake up at 7+ . Going to pray for my Grandpa at Yishun's crematorium with all.. Now the buggar is bugging me in MSN , darn noisy laa . He kept telling me those very stupid and pathetic stuffs . He asked me to be his gf yesterday , gross like fuck can . He's far too irritating , like a silly little fucker . Fuck off , buggar! I shall stop here already . Goodnight people. <3

POLO Club's jackpot room .

*smile*

"The "goodbye" that i didnt get to tell you . "

xoxo`

xoxo`

Tmr's is Speech Day ! I needa report in school by 2:30pm , i'm so scared laa . Cause i'm taking over Michell's place , his place is so like important and hard to do . I'll be running around the school tmr , spot me . =) The last rehearsal was cool and fucking hot . I was pespiring like hell , kept asking for tissue from my Sister . He's my supplier.. Sister and Vincent is having duty in the hall , same like last year . Was so afraid that day laa , that buggar went back to school to see the rehearsal . When i saw him , i was like "ohh.. fuck! what the hell is he doing here ? " It's really annoying to keep seeing him when i'm running around . I was cursing and swearing inside whenever i see him while running . That buggar is really irritating laa , he relys on me to wake him up every morning for school . Fuck laa.. Then for the past few years how he wake up ? He told me , his handphone's alarm clock is spoil . Cant his family members wake him up ? Cant he ask his friends to call him up ? He missed call me every now and then even in the middle of the night , pevertic . Yes , a lot of people say so . Urgh! Anyhow , had tuition just now , we talked about some very eerie stuffs and i'm so afraid . So i kept screaming and shouting , i know i was making my teacher more afraid . But it was fun.. Yesterday i slept from 8pm till this morning , and yet i fell so tired . Ya , i guess i overslept . Dang~ Yesterday Leong was being a !@#$% , she make noise at us and told us soooo much unreasonable stuffs . Of course we all talked back , then she said she's very lonely , no one is with her and blah blah blah .. So i sang that Mr Lonely song to her , oh.. i'm so bad . Then at first she said that i'm rebellious . Fuck her! I'm just asking her a simple question , and she barked back like a mad dog . Hell... She said that our class wont pass Mid Year Exam . Such fucking form teacher we have right ? So before i left the class for duty , i purposely shout out loud to Khai and said : " your fucking form teacher said that we wont pass mid year . " I bet Leong heard it too , i dont care . She wanna complain , go do it . Nobody care about her laa.. My mood was like fuck and she made it worst , and during recess some Sec. 3 guy banged into me . I stared and said "tsk! what the hell laa? cant you walk with your eyes wide open ? " And i pushed his bag away .. He kept apologising. Opps ! I'm so bad right . Then others whom saw came and tell me , i'm very fierce and scary . Shit! Felt so bad for scolding that poor guy.. =( Wynny ah wynny , get back to the correct mood and dont be so ferocious can ? *shake head* Alright , i gotta stop here already . All the best for Speech Day tmr ! Goodnight.. <3

All my friends in the parade : hey guys , do well tmr ya . you all rocks ! =) stay cool !

Benny Chew : ass , you better be a good emcee tmr . if not ODAC-ians will be very dissapointed . bring out ur best , i support you . jia you!!

"I was alive but dying inside . "

xoxo`

Wynny is down with swollen eyes again . Fuck! I didn't know it was that worst.. Both my eyelids had abrasions . It is very painful.. My eyes could hardly open this morning , it was very dry and painful . Yesterday night , my tears rolled down uncontrollably when i lied down on my bed and close my eyes . Tears rolled out and my heart is really painful . I cried for like one hour and my player repeat the same song over and over again . Memories flooded my mind and looking back at those messages hurts alot . God!! How long is this gonna go on ? Sighh... School suck today , suck big time . Thank god Mr Sidek and Leong never come , i'm so glad that they didnt come today . Leong is a total turn off , she only love her "pets" . Those whom sit infront and bootlick her . Leong said that i'm against her , yes i am . Just look at the way she talk to us and complain to us about others . I'm not suprised if one day she will call my parents and bark at them . I dont mind laa , i'm not afraid at all . She's really noisy.. And some of my class people really dont have a mind of their own . During Chemistry lesson , Mr Tan was passing around this N level Chemistry theory book and ask who wanna buy . I looked through the book and find it rather good , so i wrote my name and bought it . I ask people around me if they want , they said it's a waste of money , the book wont help , useless , take up space and some fucking comments . So i kept quiet and passed the book over to another row , then Mr. Tan said something "good" . Then people around me , start to snatch for the book and place an order for it . Ya , i was cursing and swearing inside . I really cannot stand that kinda behaviour , it is so despicable . Urgh! I dont like to share my problems with someone whom is actually out to talk bad and not console you . That kinda people could just rot in hell and lick my toilet bowl . I'm seriously not in good mood this few days , so is either you stay away from me or approach me for good reasons . Am having full dress rehearsal tmr , and i reckon it will be darn hot . I wanna go rest my eyes already . I dont wish to have swollen eyes tmr again.. Goodnight people . <3

catch my tears when i cry ; my dearest

"You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong . "

xoxo`

Wynny had a very bad nightmare just now while napping , it was the same old nightmare over and over again . What the hell is it trying to infer ? I woke up with cold sweat on my forehead and tears rolling down my cheek . The nightmare is really scary and hurtful.. Sighh.. Monday blues today , and i know since when Wynny dont have Monday blues . Rrright. Mdm Faridah didnt come today , let's pray that she'll get well soon . =) Maths was a total catastrophe , the test was freaking hard . Miss Low didn't come today , so we stayed at the hall for the last period . Was playing with around with Nasri's new trick and sneaking out of the hall , but always fail . Because Miss Zhang know we wanto sneak off and play behind the hall , so she kept looking over . But we still had lotsa fun in the hall.. After school , wento buy hamster with Melvin Chan and Gransazers . The hamster Melvin Chan bought was abit scary , cause it seems to be fierce . Playing around with those baby hamster were fun , they were just so cute . And i think my back pain is coming back again.. Hell! Today, people kept telling me not to cry , and hey i'm not crying . I'm just keeping quiet , looking at the scenery and thinking about some stuffs . I only cry in the night on my bed , that's the best place . I realised i've been crying for like 2 weeks plus already , and the pain is still there . Whatever i do to distract myself from thinking about it dont work . I'll still tune back to the past and reminisce the sweet memories . Why did -he- disappear suddenly ? I always think about this and so , tears always drip down . I miss those days i received -he's- call , telling and crapping to me about his day . I miss those days -he- called and accompany me through the lonely night and on the way to school . I miss the way -he- tells me about -his- childhood times and making a hell load joke out of it . Lastly , I miss -him- . *cries*

say you'll be there for me ; my dearest

"You`ll be somewhere else , my love will go . "

xoxo`

I still cant forget what i saw yesterday , the same scenario kept flashing across my mind . I couldn't believe my own eyes either . And i regretted so much.. FUCK! Was suppose to study maths today , met Kok Swee up to pass him the present and buy hamster with Melvin Chan. But nothing was done , i end up having dinner with my parents and laze around at Uncle Ping's house . Watched Campus Superstar just now and awww... =( Anyhoo , am suppose to buy hamster with Melvin Chan today . But he love his computer more than the hamster , so we will buy the hamster some other day . Tmr i'm having maths test , i'm so scared laa . And once again , tmr first period is Mr. Trevor's lesson again . He always spoil my Monday.. *grumbles* Received a call from Titus just now , he called over from Australia . Titus will be back on Wednesday , he said that he'll get me nougats and lotsa chocs . Woopeedoopeedoo~ Should i get a new handphone or a new digital camera ? Mmmms , tough decision . Just now , wento AMK for dinner . Was looking around to see if i could bump into -him- , and no i didnt see -him- at all . -He- shower me with love , care , concern and happiness constantly everyday . Everything was so lifelike , i dont even wanto wake up from that dream . Until one fine day , i finally woke up knowing that everything was just a lie . And realising that everything was just a dream . I treated as -he- didnt exist at all , but i just cant get over with it . -He- made believed in fate , -he- also made me realise that time do drift people apart . I'm really hurt by -him- , i was tongue-tied by -him- . I held on to everything with high hopes , hoping that there'll be miracle one day . I guess my hopes are always meant to be shattered.. Sighh.. I can say that , yesterday was the worst night ever . I cried like hell , as if someone was dead . My heart was stabbed by a few thousand daggers , the pain is unbearble . Reminiscing the good old memories , browsing through those lovey dovey , heart warming and humourous messages really hurts alot . Nothing could be explained , silence is the best . For now , Goodnight readers . <3

" You`ll be there for me , when hope is out of sight . "

xoxo`

*cheers* Finally i'm done with my new blog . FINALLY~ Anyhow , i reached home around 10+ just now . Wento town with Gransazers and they kept playing that APRIL FOOLS thingy . So lame.. Bought Kok Swee's present , i bought him a REBIRTH tee . Hope he'll like it , cause last year he bought me Freshbox tee and i love it so much . =) When i was in town , i was wondering and looking around .. Thinking if i can see someone special , but my heart was thumping very fast . I dont know why , i'm kinda scared also . Was on the way to Somerset MRT and i think i saw -him- , then i kinda move away . I quickly nudge Edwin and told him about it , we all stopped and see . Edwin kept saying it wasn't -him- , but i insisted that it was -him- . After awhile , Alex ask if i wanna walk down and see . I quicken my steps and -he- was no where to be seen . Tears welled up my eyes , my heart were stabbed by a few thousands of daggers . It just hurts so much.. I regretted for moving away for that particular moment and delaying the time of walking down to see if that's -him- . Lotsa memories flashed across my mind , my mood went super dupedy LOW . Edwin called Dennis , and Dennis told me he saw -him- 5 minutes ago at Srgoon's Macdonalds . Ohh.. FUCK! What is it now ? Did i really see -him- or is it just hallucination ? I really dont know.. I almost made the whole world to help me decide if it was -him- . I should believe Dennis and forget what i saw just now . Sighh... LOST WITHOUT YOU <3

"I just wish that I were next to you tonight ."

xoxo`