I just got back home. Went to Bugis with my Mum to take medicine and stuffs. Note to self, Wynny is a brave girl today(inside story). haha. Did some shopping with Mum and saw some longtimenosee friends too. I so miss them! Went home with Jo today after school, walked under the rain. So cold. The bus uncle din stop for us! So we continue talking and tolerating the cold wind. haha. That freako passed me umbrella at the bus-stop cause he is going out. And i caught him smoking, puffing like a chimney. Yes, he quarelled with Mum before going out. Anyhow, i got naggings from my Mum. She kept stressing on the point that she and Dad cant rely on me and that freako when they are old. I'm still studying and she's telling me this kinda stuffs now. I mean isn't it pointless? I know when one is old they want people to take care of them or so. But Wynny is only 16, that freako 18. How are we gonna support them now. I've tried my best not to spend so much. Freako waste money on cigarettes. I dont mind if she is telling me this kinda things a few years later, but now is like totally pointless. And when i asked her to becareful when using my bag, because she pull open the bag and not zipped open. Wahlau! She start to say about me spending money and using her things. Wah lau wah lau!! Pissed off can. I know she pay for my consultation fees today, shopping she also paid. I know, i know it. AIYA, fine. I shouldn't be complaining, i'm just adding problems to others life. People cant have peace with me around. Narbei!!!! Look at the day, it's fucking Tuesday again. I hate tuesdays! Fucked up. I always have bad, fucking bad Tuesdays. I'm feeling so down now. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck !!!!!!!! *screaming all the vulgarities she knows*

Tuesdays = pissed off
Tuesdays = mindfucked
TUESDAYS = FUCKED UP DAY!

xoxo`

Urgh! I dont know. My mood is boiling now. I dont why. I hate to feel this way. Uncertain, fucked up, useless, unaprreciated and abandoned. Damn it! Who am i to care and ask so much right? Now i agree with Neknek, he used to put that ask his nick. I think i asked too much till people find it no point repeating or no point saying. Just like that time when i asked A about D, I'm just concern about her. And all i got was that stuck up attitude. Fine! I dont ask, i'm not gonna ask anymore. Concerning people is so wrong now. People dont appreciate at all. Fuck off! Narbei! I'm not angry, just..... i dont know laa. Blah! I wento the gym with Gransazers on Saturday and played soccer with them. My muscles are aching badly now. Damn! I hate my mood now. Fuck!! FF! *SCREAMS*

When you say "nothing" at all.

xoxo`

Wynny is weak again. I'm having serious MVC(monthly visitors cramps) now. When i was having physics lesson, the pain came and it became worse during chemistry lesson. I called my Mum and i cried, such a loser right. Then Dad called me and asked how am i, and agreed to come and drive me home. So ya, my Dad wento school and picked me. I know i wasted my Dad's time. I'm sorry Dad. My cliques were very nice, they kept asking if i'm okay and Nehneh bought me pua sio leng milo. Thanks a lot guys. =) Needless to say, my Dad started to nag and said "eat, eat more ice. drink more cold water laa." Plus OM also said the same thing, because he signed my departure form. =( I reached home and rested till 6pm, bathed and had tuition. And my cramps came back again. Urgh!! I failed my Chinese Prelims paper, and my Dad says after i get back everything then we shall see. I think they're gonna nag for a very long time. Sigh. Anyway, Mdm Faridah's baby boy is so cute. I carried him and my heart was dropping out, so scared. haha. But i made a fool out of myself in the hospital, i was like a total kuku. Narbei! Damn paiseh and retarded. Titus is in Canada now, he's having loads of fun there. He better not forget me if not i'll kill him. haha. My mood is always on the swing recently, i dont know why. Okay, i have to stop here. Goodnight people. <3

"Hoping you'll see what your love means to me. "

xoxo`

I've got a very happy and enjoyable weekend, a tiring yet happy Monday. And now i've a fucked up Tuesday. I'm very pissed off with lotsa things. It is always on Tuesday. Fuck!! I hate this. My phone just died on me and i'm going out later. If after i finish bathing , the phone is not almost half charged i'll just leave it at home. Damn everything! I'm going to visit Mdm Faridah later, i miss her. And i dont know the following plans, just slack and die.

xoxo`

I just finish crying , yes i did. And i felt like crap now.. I dont know why. After i finish bathing, i start to think about what happened today and maybe last few days and tears rolled out from my eyes. Cried like a retarded girl again. I'm pissed off and yet sad at the same time. I am the one to blame, i always let you feel negative. I always made you sad. You're not dumb, you're always trying to make me happy. I understand how you feel. I'm really sorry. Stupid Wynny! How am i gonn a concerntrate later when i study? Fuck! I always messed up things myself and made life hard for myself. What the fuck! Brainless Girl. Alright, i gotta go out to study now. *cries*

xoxo`

I'm waiting for my Mum to get up now, cause she's resting as she just came back from the denist. And we're heading over to Uncle Ping's house later on for dinner i guess. I went for fireworks on Friday and Saturday and it was really nice. The skies were coloured with different colours of sparkles and messages were coming in and i took a long time to sent it out because the reception was damn sucky. My very own cousin, Mister OhKS was very excited to watch the fireworks from Kallang Stadium and he missed out those that was from the water. So yes, i made him envy me again. thePig said i'm very busy while watching the fireworks, i'm sorry Pig. =) Yesterday i wento watched it with Godma, Mummy, Xing, Kiwi and co. We met Xing and Kiwi at Toa Payoh after dinner. Dinner was nice, but i wasn't in good mood. But i ate alot because i was very very down. After the first round of eating, i messaged Rose and told him "rose, i think i've eaten too much. i'm feel so fat now. i've gone too far." haha. But still, chocolates are the best remedy. Anyhow, no more watching of fireworks now and it is back to revising for prelims. Damn it! I'm doubting on somethings which i shouldn't be doubting for. I'm feeling sad for things i shouldn't do. I'm just feeling so bad. The feelings of uncertain, abandoned, depression, fear, hallucinations and stupidity. I hate it so much. Rot in hell and Fuck everything! Alright, my Mum is up already. I have to change and grab the pack of chips and eat it on the way there. Goodbye.

"Wipe away those tears that i cried."

xoxo`

I'm damn pissed off now! Fuck my phone's reception and the wireless connection here. Fuck everything! I just dont like today, everything sucks. My mood wasnt right today too, damn it! I hate it. I din tell anyone what happen to make my mood so sucky, and yes thePig is going to take revenge. I dont know how. I've been feeling down recently. Really sucky. *screaming all the vulgarities* Alright, Wynny.. relax.. Mmmms, wento the Dowager's house in the noon today, did my Social studies homework. Had dinner there and damn damn full can. Went home with Godma and met Mum at Sembawang and took bus home together. Something funny happen while i was crossing the road, but i had nice boxers to save me. haha. Wento watch fireworks on Tuesday, damn nice but very squeezy. My cliques were damn funny, ran over when the fireworks start because we were at the wrong side. haha. Then we "wow" so loudly like some kuku. haha. I'll upload the photos soon. And we had hell loads of fun in school during the bazaar, total madness man. Thursday night, dined with the 6th, 7th family, Godma and Dowager. We pao-ed our own popiah, so fun and the shape of our popiah was damn funny. haha. After the dinner, wento Bishan Park for bonding session and we had hell load of fun there. My Dowager was damn cool, seriously. And thanks for thePig's accompaniment. *can-not, can-not* =) Mond hurt his ankle and i promised to pray for him. And yes, my prayer worked. haha. We had a deal on it, right Mond? haha. Okay, i've got so many things in my mind. I've got so much to say. I just dont have the mood to blog on anymore. I'm so gonna cry. "Rot in hell , i hate you!" Goodnight.

"Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky."

xoxo`

That is what you wanted, everything is planned . Yups, this phrase have been revolving around my mind for like half of the day. School today was slacking, F & N was simply slacking and talking, then Maths was hell fun and gan chiong. VP was there to observe the lesson, she helped us alot. haha. Social Studies was like totally drowned with homework, alot of homework man. And all must be passed up on Friday. Narbei! Must finish them in like 3 days, most of them are essay questions. Urgh!! Tmr am going out to watch fireworks with my cliques, kinda excited. And i hope nobody will spoil my excitement. Oh ya, yesterday's dinner at the Dowager's house was fun. haha. "OH MY GOD!" We were all so high and noisy. Had some videos too, will upload it soon. My mood is on the swing now, i dont know why. Lotsa stuffs racing through my mind now.. I hate this kinda feeling. Fuck! I hate this! And i seriously i hate my mood today, i hate everything. Alright, i gotta stop here already. Good night!

"You and her that's what you want . you and me that's what I dream."

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xoxo`

*screams* SUPERBAND ROCKS! Yesterday was damn fun and high at the Expo. We were screaming, shouting, jumping, moving our hands and so high! My god! All the bands were nice, really. It was a pity for Lucify, but yeah, their supporters were rocking the floor too. I really love yesterday's night high-ness and all those shoutings and screamings. I can see Quek, Vic, Misaki, Shinya and Alfred like just infront of me. They were so close to us as we were standing kinda near the stage. Damn cool! MLB's patterns were really superb. I love all the bands! haha. Reached home around 12am, bathed and fell asleep while waiting for thePig's message. haha. I'm sorry, pig. =) *now and forever, even in the afternoon, night and in the morning.* laughs!! haha. My phone sucks, the reception sucks big time. Damn it! My legs are aching like hell now, damn painful. Urgh! But still, i'm going to town later with Xing and Shing. haha. Maybe, by luck i'll bump into Englischboys. haha. Then having dinner at the Dowager's house. Woohoo~! Alright, i gotta go bath and prepare already. I still cant calm down from yesterday's night high-ness. *jumping and screaming* Ciaos!

xoxo`

I just got back home from town, wento watch Click just now. It was damn fking funny but the end was really touching. Tears were clotting around my eyes man. You people should go watch it, serious. And i actually wanted to buy something today, but i came back empty-handed. Might be shopping on Sunday. haha. And fuck, i saw that freako, wynny's very own brother in town. I can tell you all, in my whole life i've never seen that freako in town before. Or anywhere outside. Today is the first time man. You people might think i'm crazy, but serious. I'm feeling damn retarded when i saw him. I was like shouting "what the fuck! i saw my brother!!" Then my cliques looked over and that freako showed me a thumbs up sign. How nice of him right? Rrright! He was just faking. haha. I had 2.4 today, damn tired and smelly can. Urgh! Oh, my Sister rocks too. He's damn brave. *salutes* And anyone wanna get me a new file, cause i broke my precious file yesterday because something happen. haha. Anyone? laughs! This morning, Serene, Shing and me was getting damn high about Englischboys laa. Damn high! Anyhow, i'm going for the rock-the-stage-and-get-high superband finals tmr. Woohoo~~ But i gotta wake up at 12pm tmr, like so early laa. haha. My prelims are so freaking soon , two weeks later. Pray for me alright? National Day is coming and i've been singing "My Island Home"everyday. I love Singapore many many! haha. And yes! I'm looking forward to the celebration. Yeah yeah! thePig is very sweet, serious. i'll get retarded and start shouting "so sweeeet!" around my house. haha. But thePig can be really evil at times, so bad. YOU SO FAT!! haha. thePig, you saw this? laughs!! Alright, good night sweet tums! <3

alex englischboys!

"will you still love me in the morning?"

xoxo`

where'd you go , i miss you so.
dont wave goodbye to me,
i want to see you again.
all we had left were sweet memories.

my precious boy!

missing ALEX ENGLISCHBOYS so much! <3

xoxo`

My weekends were spent really well. I had a really nice and fun weekend. It's the freako's birthday on Saturday and coincidentally we had a family gathering at Coasta Sand chalet. I woke up around 2pm and waited for my Dad to drive us over. Reached there around 7pm and had dinner. Walked out to Cheers to get some stuffs, Rene and Me went shopping. haha. She bought doraemon bubble, damn cute! I bought light sticks!! My god , i love light sticks so much can.. haha. Had a cake cutting ceremony for that freako and he was sabo-ed by my mum, he was to use his mouth to take out those candles on the cake. And we all planned to smash him, but we failed. haha. The cake was nice.. Alex Englischboys is really cute and sweet. I love him! *whispering "my precious.."* Played Winning Eleven, it was fun. But my hands were retarded. haha. Stayed over and slept around 5plus, me and Rene scared Ahdi and we hid in the cupboard. haha. Damn fun! Everyone is sleeping in the room and yet we're laughing like mad, or maybe me only. haha. Then all lied on the bed and chatted for awhile then i wento lala land. Woke up around 10am, and had breakfast. Peeped at Alex Englischboys, cause the night before he was sent to the hospital for some stiches as he fell while playing soccer. He is still so cute. Slacked in the room after breakfast and after awhile, we decided to go cycling. After 15minutes of cycling, it started to rain. Nerner.. So we headed back and they did homework and i listened to some songs. Lured Alex Englischboys with chips and "pao" , he love chips alot. Then we were cracking some joke outta Alex's conversation. haha. Richard Englishboys and Mikie Englischboys then came over. Managed to see Werner Englishboys and said hi to him. haha. Madness! Mikie was stucked onto the PS2, Werner went back as he was drunk, Richie played soccer with us and Alex is our audience. haha. Played some card games too, damn high can. Long's techno is like damn ner ner, Richie commented about it too. haha. Sang Fort Minor's "Where'd you go" and Alex knew how to sing it. So cool! haha. So for the whole day we surrounded those Englischboys, they are mixed blooded and speaks German, but they understand english. Yes, their last name is Englishboys. I dont know why, dont ask me. haha. Left the chalet around 7pm and went for dinner. Alex went around to shake everyones hand and said byebye, the way he call my ah ma is so cute! Then i hugged Alex and he kissed me.. Madness! Woohoo~~!! I miss them so much can. Alright, gotta stop here already. There are a lot of photos taken that day , and if you see any bubble kinda thing in the photos dont think anyhow. haha. Click here -sweet memories!

I MISS ALEX ENGLISCHBOYS
RICHIE ENGLISCHBOYS,
MIKIE ENGLISCHBOYS,
WERNER ENGLISCHBOYS
AND ALL MY COUSINS!!!

"Love makes us a little weaker, but in the end you'll be a little stronger."

xoxo`