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Monday, September 25, 2006
i begged for you to be safe

To ease my worry-ness from yesterday, there is only one song. THAT'S WHAT I LOVE YOU - ASLYN. You people should know why if you are my die-hard blog readers. I really hope time can rewind back to the time where this song starts to fill up my mind every single day. And everytime when i listen to it, i had a very strong feeling of missing this special someone. I start to reminisce the good times we spent together during that short period of time. The way we laughed, do retarded things, stared and had lotsa fun together. Be is as a friend, a buddy, a listening ear or anything. You never fail to aid me, brighten up my day and make me smile. Now, i only hope that special someone is fine and safe. Please.. I'm praying very hard here. You'd better be safe. I dont wanto lose a special someone like you. *cries*

That's When I Love You
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly
And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
No matter what... <3

xoxo`

Saturday, September 23, 2006
you're like a dream come true

Your Highness is feeling super emo now. Damn! Anyhow, went for dinner with my Dowager, Godma, the 7th(s), my parents plus freako's gf. It was a very very full dinner please. Buttered-Cereal Prawns were so heavenly. Eating them made me so tak glam and idiotic. haha. I rot my day at home, wanted to go Godma's house initially but cancelled because we're meeting for dinner already. Scroll down and you could actually see my updated entries, read them slowly and read them when you're free. I dont know why, but i have the mood to blog today. So i typed out everything and TADA! Watched Haunted Apartment yesterday, fuckin' scary can. I was using Andy's jacket to cover my eyes and screaming. I think Andy wasn't scared at all till my screamings scare him. haha. After the movie, walked and slacked around. Then met AhDi for awhile, and left because i'm tired. Met Jo at Yishun then she sent me home, how nice of her. =) My day din really start well yesterday after receiving a call from Dad. I dont know how. I dont know what to do. I'm just scared, but still i wanto face the consequences. I know i will cry, i will argue and i will be mad. But, what more can i say? I'm in the wrong and i cant do anything, i just have to conform to whatever things he say. Yesterday, i slept before he was home. So nothing happened, today during dinner we din talk much. So i think tmr will be the doom day, i'm prepared for it. Actually i wanto know the consequences earlier, dragging day by day is retarded and killing me. *screams* After looking through my past photos, i miss my longlong hair. Really. I miss my sweetiepiess. I miss the times bribing my little sweetiepiess with sweets and asked them to call me JieJie instead of other names. I miss the fun i had during every year's CNY when i'm at Malaysia. I miss bike rides by my lovely cousins. I miss late nights supper and crappings with them. I miss squating down at the roadside eating Apam Balik and drinking TehTarik. I miss our Gransazers and PuffyPuffs outing, i mean as in everyone is present. I miss ClarieToh, NigelSim, NoelSim, ShaunHoi, HazelHoi and Reynard-iforgotwhatsurname. I miss towning with the OHs. And the list goes on and on... Feeling very down and Anyhow, i gotta stop here already. N levels is last then a week chums! Study hard people! <3

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I'm very worried now. The thing happened last Sunday and i only knew it yesterday. I'm super worried now. Please.. You better be safe and sound. I dont want anything to happen to you. I wanto fly over now if i can. I wanto see you fine, see you smile. *cries* Okay, i know. NehNeh said dont let my imaginations run wild. I will slowly.. calm down. I pray, i cry, i beg. Please... *screams*
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"The speed of love is blinding, and I don't know how to hold on. "

xoxo`

Friday, September 22, 2006
perhaps it was just love.

Alright, i just reached home from dinner with Jo and NewYork Pizza. Super full! Ate and talked alot, looking out for cats and blinking my infected right eye. Nerner. I wento nap without taking out my lenses in the noon because i know i'll be going out with Jo at night for dinner. Then tuition was cancelled because she was busy so i woke up and my right eye was dry. I took the eye drop and squeezed a few drops onto my eye, bathed and went out. Met Jo and bus-ed down to Khatib, my eyes was teary and red. Yes, shui wang wang. haha. Very pain can. =( Then walked to Yishun, scary but fun. haha. Slacked outside Cheers, drank bubble tea, SAMP-ed and took photos. haha. Jo kept wanting to come and slack and Chamber. haha. Chamber is a very nerner place, with bengbengs puffing outside and sqauting along the drain making stupid noise when you walk passed them. Throw stones at them! haha. When i reached home, i din wash my hand and took out my lenses. Again! Narbei! I know, stupid. haha. School was stupid today, especially Mr Sidek's lesson. Fuck him man. He dont want to give us back our exams paper and said "how come you all want back your paper when u all know you fail." Retarded laa. OKAY, we know we fail but can look through our mistakes and do corrections right? So this means, after my N levels i dont needa go back to school to take my results and just go to Sec5 right. Brainless can. I'm super pissed off with him. Urgh! Mrs Raja talked to all the 4NA today and she's quite good actually. haha. Tmr is some retarded e-learning day, so the graduating classes dont needa attend school but we have to do work online. But i'll be going out with my chums to watch Haunted Apartment. Woohoo~ And yes, i'll be afraid to go home alone again. haha. Watched Forbidden Siren on Tuesday, super scary. I wanto save money and buy lotsa stuffs. haha. Sponsors needed! haha. I watched "Say i Do" on Tuesday night, i cried like hell can. So touching and sweet. Oh.. that freako is gonna sleep in the computer room very soon. Yes! *cheers* Finally he is out of the room. haha. I miss my sweetiepies. love love` And that's all for today, Goodnight people.

"And the hurt from the heartache would not subside."

xoxo`

Sunday, September 17, 2006
sweet sweet love

Woked up around 10am by my sweetiepies. Bathed and had breakfast with my parents, ZhiQing korkor(Qizhi's Dad) and Kuan jie. I din bring those kids out cause only one car, and so when i'm back they asked me where i went with those innocent face. I felt so bad. =( Babysitted Qihua till he sleeps because ZhiQing korkor and his wife went for shopping. Qihua loves me, i love Qihua. haha. Played around with those kids till late noon, Mum wants to go shopping at TESCO. 7 people went together. Super fun! Qizhi, Qingqing and me sat at the back, did lotsa stupid things. The boys started telling me some Kakashi thingy which i dont understand at all, and played like siao. haha. TESCO is super big! Two little boys followed me around and i bought ice cream for them. Qizhi is really lovely. Qingqing is funny. haha. And i told hjm that he was super noisy yesterday night. He laughed and asked me was he cool. Mad. haha. Went back, bathed, ate dinner and slacked. Enen is super cute. Asked me to tie her hair for her and she took the wrong comb. She is very funny, i love to laugh at her and she laugh at herself too. haha. Lied on my lap and watched tv while the boys sat beside me. They followed me where ever i go and no, they dont look for their parents at all. haha. And damn i'm like a nanny. haha. Qihua woked up and i carried him around then Dad carried him. They knew i'm going home at night, so they asked me when will i go back again and stuffs. How can i not love them right? They are just so sweet. I'm so gonna miss them can. I dont wanto leave them, i wanto play with them and do funny stuffs with them. I always feel sad after leaving Malacca because i'll miss them for a long long time. *cries* So we left around 9:30pm with hugs and kisses. *grins* Aww... I miss them man. I want to go back again after my N levels maybe around mid or early November. Yes, i want! Anyhow, reached home around 1plus in the morning and my cellphone was flooded with messages. haha. Goodnight sweetiepies!


xoxo`

Saturday, September 16, 2006
sweetiepies love

Mum woked me up around 8am, bathed, prepared and set off to Malaysia. Woohoo~ So excited. Freako din go, so i've got lotsa space at the back. Cool shit. Mum asked me to bring my Physics and Chemistry notes to read. Yes, i brought but i only read for awhile. Then i start to look around, sing songs eat bubble gum. haha. Stopped at some TOL for toilet breaks and smoke break for my Dad. Yes, my Dad smokes when he is in Malaysia. First Stop : K. Pilah, Big Aunt's house. She injured her leg in an accident early this year and had an opearation in June. Now she is recovering slowly, but still have to walk with walking stick. She is a strong woman and i love her alot. <3 Played with little nieces and ate the famous Apam Balik. Damn nice! Left around 4pm and headed down to Malacca, 2nd uncle's house. Yes yes! I've been waiting anxiously to go there. Because.. i get to see my sweetiepies! Qizhi, Enen, ZhanZhan, Qingqing and my cousins. Yippees! Went shopping at Mahkota first, bought some tops and bottoms. Mum and me was like shoppaholics, we shopped and shopped till we forget about our dinner. haha. Reached 2nd uncle's house and hugged all my sweetiepies. Miss them so so much. Met my new love there, Qihua. Qizhi's younger brother. He is very cute. ZhanZhan said the same thing to me again "I thought you were lost." haha. When i go to the toilet for awhile and when i'm back, he thought i'm lost also. So i must report to him or maybe them where ever i go. haha. Enen will stand outside the toilet when i'm bathing and keep asking "you done already?" haha. QiZhi will ask me to wait for him and bring him over to XY jiejie's house. Or feed him. haha. Lastly, Qingqing will ask me to play games with him or bring him over. I kept running across to XY jiejie's house and back to 2nd uncle's house. It's just opposite and we just have to cross this very short distanced of road. haha. Slept with Qizhi, Qingqing and ZhanZhan at XY jiejie's room. We had loads of fun in the room. haha. Kakak(family maid) was disturbed by us too. haha. Actually at first i just wanted to stay in the room till all my little babies are asleep. But they dont let my out, they asked me to sleep there. haha. So yes, slept on the matress with Qingqing on my right and QiZhi on my left then Zhanzhan and Kakak at the corner. haha. ZhanZhan threw his smelly napkin over and laughed like a pervert. And after washing his hands, he will pretend he wants to hug me but in the end he just want to clean his hands. haha. This is how much he loved me. haha. Qizhi kept poking me and pretend he din do it then act that he is sleeping. Naughty boy. So i poked him back and pretend also. Then he starts to tell me about his Superman philosophy and he says "Superman dont sleep. He flies around and he got power" So i asked him not to sleep cause Superman dont sleep. He nodded his head and we did our handshake thingy and played bolster-hunt with him again and after awhile he fell asleep. Superman no more, my dear. haha. Qingqing started throwing tantrum and played dreamboxing because he had block nose. When i was asleep, i felt someone poking my hand. I opened my eyes and saw ZeXian! my sweet lovely cousin. He told me some stuffs and i fell back to sleep. haha. Wynny love all her cousins! <3

xoxo`

Thursday, September 14, 2006
anticipating silently

I'm bored after finishing my Maths paper, i'm tired. I dont know if i still can go on revising for my Geography. But i'll go back to my revision after this post. I'm having both Maths paper 1 and Geography paper tmr. Wish me luck, people. =) Had Geog remedial today by Ms Zhang, she is seriously better. After the remedial, it was raining heavily. So we slacked in school for awhile, spotted Uncle Lim and asked if he could send me and Chew home and he agreed. Woohoo~ Got into his car together with Ms Huang and Ms Lim too. I found one good friend whom carry the same phone as me, the phone state is as bad as mine and the scratches on the phone were very bad too. The person is Ms Lim! I tell you, we rocks! haha. So after sending them, left only Ms Huang and me. Followed Uncle Lim to Northpoint's OCBC to withdraw money. We stayed in the car while he went down to withdraw money. Ms Huang told me lotsa stuffs and she saw my cellphone's wallpaper. Super funny. She was like "cute.. i know him." Then i was like "huh.. you saw him before blah blah blah.." haha. Cool~ Uncle Lim packed YaKun's toast for us, we felt so pampered. haha. Reached home, bathed and slept till evening and woke up for tuition. Anyhow, my chums are very interested about the pervertic teacher's case. haha. They warned me to be careful when going to the toilet, sitting down and everything. haha. But still, fuck that teacher!!Damn.. Alright, i have to go grab my chocolates and revise now. My dad is starting to nag already. All the best to all my friends tmr. =) Good night sweet tums.. <3

"Promise me everything that you said to me is true."

xoxo`

Wednesday, September 13, 2006
melancholy

School is damn tiring for the past few days. My eyes were just so dry and painful every morning i wake up. And i'll take a long time to wear my contact lenses. Everything is just so wrong in the morning everytime. I get very irritated easily too, not PMS , idiot. Urgh.. Anyhow, my prelims are starting this Friday, so people wish me luck alright. =) Last few days have been studying outside with Chew, Kj, Tony, Harry all and Jo. Jo and me always look for each other, or maybe she'll come over to look for me. haha. Then we'll go home together. Guan da la mei laa~ haha. Oh yes, i'm very very disturbed by what Babi told me today during recess. If everything is true, fuck that teacher man. He's super pervertic! Rot in hell laa, fucker. *screams* Sometimes i find that some people wants you to listen to their problems, but when you are having problems and wants to talk to them, they aren't listening to you at all. Seriously, JL and me agreed on this. Mmmms.. For the past few days i've been thinking about some stuffs. I'm starting to feel negative now, i dont know why. But i've made up my decisions to clear my doubts as soon as i can. I dont want to think about this problem everytime and feel sad about it. I just want to know the truth and that's it. =) Alright, Your highness is going to bed already. Good night sweeties. <3


"Without saying a word, you can light up the dark."

xoxo`

Saturday, September 09, 2006
perfect no more

Alright, Thurday night at ClubMomo wasnt good at all. The music sucks actually. I met Jazlyn and Felicia, my motherfucker darling. haha. I woke up around 12noon, skipped Chemistry lesson and went for lunch with Chew. I was practically laughing all the way and listening to Chew's naggings. Super funny! We saw something which we kind of din expected and now we finally know it. I dont know how should i feel, i dont know what should i say. I'm just super pissed off when i saw that but din really show it out. But now, save the explanations okay. I dont want any explanations. Say me unreasonable, but i just dont wanto hear those explanations. Went home with a hot boiling mood, screamed and shouted whatever shit i wanted at home. I dont fucking care now. Lie if you want, die if you want. Cut the actings and fuck yourself. Why do this? Why must everything be this way? Enough is enough, dont you get it? Stop making everything into a fucked up situation and end it with a fight. Urgh! I dont care whether you know who i'm scolding or not, you know it yourself. Enough of those scoldings.. After i bathed, went over to freako's gf house to get heels. We cabbed there, freako paid. Also have to thank his gf's mum whom helped me mend the heels. =) We took bus down to J8, met Nehneh, Xw and Andy. Slacked at Macs and left around 9plus. Cabbed down to Momo and blahblahblah. Went for Counsillor BBQ at Innova Jc yesterday. It was alright, sat with the teachers and talked alot. haha. Watched LittleMan with Chew yesterday too. Watch it! It was duperly funny. haha. Anyhow, it's a Saturday and i'm at home. I only went out for a short dinner. So bored can. And the tv is in my room now. Yeah! Oh and my parents saw my cell phone's wallpaper and kept asking if i've got a boyfriend. When i say "no" , they say i'm lying. Come on~ i'm telling the truth can. haha. Alright, I'll go up my bed, watch tv and sleep now. Goodnight sweet tumss! <3


"Tell me how much i meant to you."


xoxo`

Monday, September 04, 2006
indulgence

4th September & 5th September 2006
Alright, just looking at the date you all will know it's my N levels MT and SS paper ya. So on the 3rd September i studied abit here and there and went off to IKEA to shop with my parents. Because my Dad have got a 300$ voucher. wooohoo~ Bought new bed sheets and we're going again next month. Yeah! I LOVE MY NEW BEDSHEET!! Will post a picture of it later. haha. MT paper was erm.. alright. SS paper was a catastrophe. Total shit! Fuck that bloody paper. Urgh! Anyhow, met Jo for dinner at night and we had hell loads of fun. Me imitating Jasmine Tye's voice, singing Jay Chou's songs and taking loads of pictures. Eating WarHead DROOPS is super fun. haha. Reached home around 9pm and watched tv. And anticipating for next day's Dragon Boat tranining and chalet. haha.

6th September 2006
Woke up excitedly, prepared my stuffs for training and off i went out. Boarded the bus with my friends and we're at the reservoir again. Everybody is so tired, so we slept in the bus. Reached there and we're all ready for the training. Rocking on the boat, POM-ing! , screaming, shouting and everything is so cool. Coach Sultan is one cool guy, big size and funny. He is super strong can. We had to jump off the boat to do some retarded things like trying if our life vest can float. haha. Then after jumping down, i couldnt get up the boat. My pants were like dropping can. And Coach Sultan came to my rescue!! He pulled me up and then i'm in the boat. Woohoo~ Thank god my pants din drop. haha. Sat at the side of the boat, started rocking the bloody boat and we have to lie down and our body have to touch the water. Super fun but scary. haha. POM-ed all the way till the end and ended our training. Once again, we head down to Yishun swimming complex to bath and stuffs. haha. Cheapos right, i know. haha. Bathed quickly and rushed off to meet Sam and gang down to Wendy's chalet. On the way to the interchange, was asking Hafizi if he have powder. haha. Smell nice~ Took bus down to Pasir Ris, thanks to JK he was short and cant see. So we missed the stop and had to take cab in, but he paying the cab fares. haha. AhBu and Cherryn brought us in and i saw so many people. Other then Jessilyn, Wendy's cousin, i think i'm the youngest already. haha. Thanks to JiaSheng who bbq crabmeat, hotdogs for me, Yh and Ben for the chicken wings and AhBu for the BeeHoon. haha. Helped out XZ in bbqing and it was fun. Not long later, Sister came and we chatted. Yh then volunteer to send us home together with Js, Sam and gang. Mond arrived and he kept eating and eating. haha. Kept seeing him taking BeeHoon to eat. haha. He is super violent when playing the cake smashing. Tsktsktsk.. Yh then wanted to drink Chivas, but on the other hand he have to drive us home. So he drank and rested awhile and sent us home. 5 person sitting at the back , Sam sitting infront. I was like squatting down can. haha. Joanna and Yvonne is sticky and smelly. haha. I'm the last to get off the car, still have to thank Yh for sending me home. =) Bathed and slept, super tired. But i enjoyed alot. haha.




xoxo`

Saturday, September 02, 2006
that is not the way

1st September 2006

KRUNK @ Sentosa. Yeah baby yeah! Head down to Sentosa around 2pm with my cliques and played around. It was duperly fun, but Babi is very troublesome. haha. Played some soccer and ball throwing. Took some photos with Andy's long-lost brother, they really look alike can. Really! haha. Damn funny. Then we played passing in the middle of the road when waiting for tram. haha. Reached KRUNK and is like so not high cause it was only 8plus, so we walked out to slack, eat and talk. Around 12plus, we went in again and we were so high. Danced, jumped, screamed, shouted and it is just total madness! I saw FELICIA, MY MOTHERFUCKER DARLING!! haha. Why motherfucker? Inside story. haha. wooohoo~ My camera died on me, so limited pictures on the dancefloor. Left KRUNK around 3am, took cab and met freako at the basement of my house. Bathed and slept. Thinking that i'll wake up at 9am the next day for Social Studies remedial. haha. In the end, yeah. I skipped it. haha. Alright, pictures up here - KRUNK!

2nd September 2006

I woked up feeling super pissed after that. I wanted to strangle someone to death. Had my primary school gathering, it made my day better. Meeting them again is seriously so fun plus those gossipings and updatings were nice. I still love them. =) Amston din change much, cocky, noisy, crappy and disturbing. haha. He's like a sister to me and Cheryl. haha. We're gonna meet up real soon yeah? More pictures, more racist jokes, more lame craps. haha. I haven got all the photos yet, so i haven upload into my gallery. But i popped by Yeemah's house to peep and Baby Jayrel. haha. He is so so fat! So cute~ haha. But he very noisy laa, give him pacifier he pushed my hand away. Die die want me to carry him out of the cradle. Then when he is tired, he dont wanto sleep. Keep yawning. haha. Naughty boy! Taught him some stuffs when he's happily drinking his milk. YeeMah and me taught him in English, Chinese, Malay and Hokkien. haha. Super funny! Then carried him for awhile and his head is like owl can, turn here turn there. haha. But i still love him. heee.. Pictures of Baby Jayrel is up - sweetie jayrel

xoxo`

Friday, September 01, 2006
come with me

Now it is 7th September. After letting my blog rot for 122434546days, i decide to blog now. haha. I've loads of stuffs to say and i've loads of fun! The dates of the posts are random. haha.

31st August 2006
I shouldn't say much on the lessons that day. Cause i dont think we had lessons like other classes. haha. Learnt how to fold a paper flower during Physics and my Chemistry teacher was absent that day. So yes, it is free period. Played soccer, took lotsa photos, piggyback race and noise pollution. haha. I love 4a2! Teacher's day concert wasn't that bad, The Crossover was cool and Farheen's peformance was total madness can! *screams "farheeeennn"* After the concert, went around school to look for my seniors. Yes seriously, i love them. Hugged and kissed them and yes i got lotsa hugs too plus kiss from my Narnia. haha. LeeFong hugged me damn hard and kept saying she really miss us, i miss you a lot too woman. Yok and Cyn said the same thing also. Sembawang ODAC rocks! =) Hugged my dearie Cindy and chat for that few minutes and she left for lunch. How pathetic right, dearie? haha. Narnia's(Fifa) mouth is oily when eating the beehoon yet she still kissed me. Eee... haha. But okay, after that i returned her. Fair. haha. A lot of my seniors have bike and cars, mostly bike. Please, take me for a ride. haha. Mister OhJL passed his bike licence already, so i'm waiting for his ride. Went to play soccer after that, super tired and super down. I dont feel good, i just wanto cry. Anyhow, pictures below =)





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xoxo`