I shall clear those dusts and webs in my blog now. haha. One word to describe my past few days, TIRED! The past few days was spent quite well, i guess. But yesterday really wasnt my day, BMC screwed my day. BMC always screw my day up, brainless fuckers and retardys. I wonder how the whole school can still do their business. The management is not well co-ordinated, the front desk staffs are not updated and give wrong informations, the teacher talk without using his brains. Orientation? Or- your bloody *! Yesterday was actually my off day, but still i went to FEP to work, and was together with Eunice. I worked together with Eunice the past few days, and we both rocked the shop laa. We blast R&B music and danced like nobody's business. We dont care if passer-bys look at us or not, we just dance and "move your body girl!" . haha. Scolding, cursing, making noise together when we're unhappy with the customers. But at the end of the day, customers are always right. Whatever, we still curse and swear. She is hooked up with my "narbei!", we must work together man! hahaha. Today was with KaiYun, another crazy girl. But i dont dare to dance infront of her like what i always do with Eunice, shy laa. haha. But we still make noise, sing stupid songs with funny pitch, challenge each other to sum up the sales and see who got it right. haha. Free milo today from Sebas too, he bought it for me. haha. Thanks dude~ Des, Jeanna, Baby and MeiYun(too many to list out) wasnt bad also. At least we clicked well and talked about almost everything. I can say it is, total madness. Plus, now my bosses know i love to play with their trolleys. Because whenever somebody take stocks down with a trolley, i never fail to play with it. I'll stand on it and do whatever 360 stunts or whatever crazy things on it. haha. They asked me to roll back to Yishun on that trolley myself. haha. I even told them to push me to the carpark and i'll walk back to the shop myself after that. I'm seriously retarded. *screams!* I guess life is better now, not that mundane anymore. I hope it can be better and everything will go on smoothly. Tmr is my off day, i have to pack my room and get enough rest. Goodnight world! loves`

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Dead tired. Stress. Ageing. Whatever that describes all these. Work had been quite stress, i dont know why. Sales sucks and everything just sucks. Sometimes i dont know what the hell i'm doing, what the fuck i'm fearing about. I just hate myself. After resting for 3 months, getting back to work is abit tedious. I drag myself out of bed every morning, feeling fatigue and gloomy, worrying about sales, thinking about my studies. And after work, i drag my heavy feets back home and think about the next day. Picturing a perfecto day for myself, but in the end it was a catastrophe. Things have yet to be settled, and those fuckers go on dragging and wasting my time. I worry everyday about it, but it just seems to be useless and wasting my braincells. I dont know why i always feel so down after work, i just feel like crying and whining or even get drunk and die. My life is gonna end at the age of 30 i guess, and by then i might have liver cancer due to drinking too much alcohol, having a 40years old face because of depression and super puffy eyes because i cry everyday. I dont know where are those people who always call me, talk to me and listen to my whinings. I wonder if Wynny still appear in their mind, or perharps each of them have their own happy life already. I dont wanto think about it now. Oh wells, i know i'm being pessimistic here. I dont feel good at all right now. Having a meeting tmr at 10am at J8, after that working till night. Bless me. Pop by my shop and cheer me up, buy me chocolate or whatever to at least make me smile. There goes my happy-cheerful-talkative life, pathetic indeed. Goodnight.

my lips are dry and cracked everyday. my legs ached everyday, it never ache so badly before.
i bang into doors all the time, and my shoulder hurts. my hands are dry and ugly now. my mind is fucked up now.
I'M NOT COOL ANYMORE.

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Yesterday was a fkup day, i cried half my day away. Ahh... Those things just sucks and those people are just brainless i guess. Whatever! So i told myself Friday will be a good day, and yeah today was quite fun and happy day. Purpur was fun, was working with Baby(yes thats her name) today and went crazy while browsing through CPOP magazine. But we did do work laa, sales today was alright. I was running around level 1 and 4, then at times running to and fro the shoe shop. haha. Let's hope that tmr sales will be better. hee` Today my loveliest cousins visited me. First was Mister Oh Kok Swee, at first i couldn't regconise him because he changed his hairstyles. He stood outside my shop and said Hello to me, but i looked at him and stoned for awhile. haha. Then i forgot what we talked about cause we both spoke too fast, but i told him i was thirsty and wanted a drink. He asked what drink do i want and said he'll buy it for me after his late lunch. But after 15minutes or so, he appeared with a bottle of Pink Dolphin. haha. Sweet right? Baby said he was sweet too. haha. Wooohooo~ Of course! *beams* That is what i call "Ai Xin Shen Qi Shui" (holy water with love) haha. He is really nice eh, last few days we were chatting in MSN and i thought we could go to work together because he use to work somewhere near there too. But he said he stopped working already, because school started. Aww... =( Then i asked him to come and visit me, and TADA! he came to visit me on my first day. Nice right? haha. *screams and jumps* After him was Rene, she called me earlier to inform me about Aloysius appearing in Orchard. hahaha! Then after awhile, Aloysius Saw walked past the shop super gan chiongly. He really slim down alot man. haha. Rene was walking around with me and on the same time we tried to talk as much as we can. haha. My phone then went dead, and i regret for not charging my phone this morning. Left the shop at 10:30pm with Baby and trained home, reached home around 11:15pm. My legs were aching man, i dont know why. haha. Oldman! OSIM okay? Woosa~ haha. Thanks for all the goodlucks messages, you people rock my pathetic life! haha. I have to go rest now. More goodlucks for me tmr! Goodnight honey babies. loves`

Mister Oh Kok Swee : cousin! am sorry that i couldnt message and thank you just now because my phone was dead. and thanks for the Pink Dolphin too! Thanks for visiting me today, deeply appreciated. Visit more okay? haha. be a good boy ya. You rock! love ya =D

Rene : yoposehyo! thanks babe! start saving now so you can go buy the belts and bag you want. haha. see ya soon, huggs!

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Now I regret gobbling down 6 extra strong painkillers just in two days, which i did in early February. From then i missed my menses till now, so it's like 2 months without menses. I dont see red at all. Yes i love it so much! But i have to let those dirty and unhealthy blood come out laa, if not i'll die because i had too many dirty blood inside my body. haha. So i'm on pills again, this time is some magic-like medicine, i have to take one tablet everyday and in one week's time i'll see red! hahaha. Okay, nothing to be excited about because i took these pills before last November. haha. I cant wait for this Friday man, i'm excited yet scared. I dont know why. But i hope everything will turn out good and cope-able. =) Life is mundane. Add some excitements into my life will you? -after spacing out for 5 minutes- I decide to get back to my show and look forward to Friday and not screw it up. Goodnight people. loves`

note to ALL : Please know the right time to use the word "As-Soon-As-Possible" . Use the word "ASAP" to me ONLY ON IMPORTANT STUFFS THAT WILL CAUSE LIFE AND DEATH! If not, i'll scream at you and skin you alive. I swear! Your kind co-opearation is deeply appreciated. =)

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Oh well, I'm happily eat cereal now. Looking at the time now, i have to blog fast and watch at least one episode of my newloves show. I have to be on my bed by 3am, because anytime after 3am one of my parents will wake up and i'm sure to get some screamings. Smart uh. haha. Look at my new blog picture!! *points up* Nice, sweet, lovely RIGHT! haha. Yesterday was Jiejie(2)'s birthday, and i was invited for the dinner at SinMing Avenue's hongkong restaurant. Baby Jayrel was there too, but he was making lotsa noise because he din nap in the noon. It was always fun with him around. Before we set out, he was talking to himself and he could roll his tongue man. Okay, i cant okay. Super cool laa. Then in the car, he pats on my shoulder and pointed to his favourite moo-moo stickers. haha. When we reach the restaurant, he saw his Yeye(Grandpa) and he started smiling. Aww.. How sweet! Baby Jayrel's bestfriend is his Yeye, and Yeye dotes on him the most, and when Yeye is around Baby Jayrel wont want anybody to carry him expect his Yeye. haha. Plus the funny part is when he is eating, he held on to his Yeye's arms and wiped his mouth on his Yeye's sleeves. haha. Super funny. The dinner wasnt too bad, quite full. And we headed back to YeeMah's house to eat the birthday cake, Ice cream cake. On the way back, we were all being crazy in Korkor's car, we sang that Mapoh song. Korkor changed those lyrics and making it sound even funnier. We were just crazy. haha. The cake was nice, oreo oreo oreo. Reached home around 12am, watched my newloves show and wento sleep. Oh, last Friday at YeeMah's house we were looking through some old photos and it was super funny. Jiejie(2), HuaGe and me was laughing at our retarded hairstyles, retarded dressing and all the retarded actions we posed for the camera. haha. The scene of us looking through those old photos and talking about those past times were wonderful, so wonderful. *beams* Plus, i must really apologise to HuaGe regarding the jacket. I'm sorry dude, seriously sorry. *frowns* Alright, i'm going back to my show now. Enjoy staring at Baby Jayrel's picturesss below. Goodnight honey babies! loves`



Top left and right : obviously he is trying to snatch my phone away.
Bottom left and right : being blur when i said "baby smile!!"


Top left : i dont know why he gave me that face too, before that he was laughing. haha.
Top right : aint he handsome? *winks*
Bottom left : this picture looks like a self-shot he took himself huh.
Bottom right : again, priceless smile from him.

Dont you just love Baby Jayrel? LOVE YOU laaa... *kisses*

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I wento Baby Jayrel's house on Friday and helped YeeMah prepare the ingredients for Penang Laksa. Was picking out bones from the fishies, and i tell you my hands smelt really bad after that. Smell something fishy huh. haha. While doing those stuffs, Baby Jayrel was in his walker moving around, talking to himself, hitting the table and at times staring at me blankly. He is super cute, and when you say "pai pai shou" (clap your hands) he'll put his hands together and try to clap, but unfortunately no sound laa. haha. But he is naughty, when we're talking and kinda neglected him, he'll pull the table cloth, scream and make noise. haha. Then YeeMah will say "eh! beat beat huh!!" The sweetest part is he'll grab YeeMah's hand and put it on his chest. haha. I tried a few times too, and yes really sweet laa. After JieJie(Jayrel's mum) and me finish preparing those stuffs, YeeMah wento cook and we took a rest. Carried Baby Jayrel and he bite my lips, saliva all over my lips which is quite disgusting. haha. But i still love him! He took his nap and JieJie and me chatted about lotsa stuffs. Dinner started around 7pm or so, and the Penang Laksa was really nice. Then Baby Jayrel woke up and he was being noisy again. haha. HuaGe was talking about weddings photo shoots and all, i was smiling and "wah"-ing as usual. And he said "wah your head. your wedding is 10years later okay." I know i know. haha. Around 11pm, JieJie(2), Dennis Korkor, HuaGe and me went for prata at Sembawang. Hell loads of chatting from travelling to camera brands, to cars to weddings and the list goes on. When talking about wedding, i was being a retard smiling to myself and imagining lotsa stuffs again. Then Dennis Korkor said "you see, Wynny starts to dream again." hahaha. Reached home around 1am and watched my newloves show. haha. Today was quite a rot-at-home day for me, i did nothing useful. I wake up, eat my brunch, watch tv, surf the net, wento nap awhile and wento view my new house. Heehee.. There is a playground under my block, thats the part i love most. I dont know why. haha. And the mama or papa shop under my block is cool, cause it sells the brand of potato chip that i love most. hahaha. Let's hope i'll love my new house more and get use to the enviroment asap. =) Alright, my show is starting soon. Till then. loves`

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Yeah baby! I just finish watching some funny videos and i tell you, i'm super crazy now. haha. Okay, today had tuition at 1pm and after tuition wento slacked at Sembawang with Chew. Sibei slack and totally lifeless man. haha. Oh, my LaoDa is super cool can. He is somebody whom i respect the most and i wont wanto dissappoint him. I'll keep my promise, really. I LOVE MY LAODA!! =) Oh ya! While waiting for bus down to Sembawang just now, i was thinking if i should go visit Baby Jayrel this weekend or not. Then my cell rang, JIEJIE(jayrel's mummy) CALLED ME! haha. She asked me to go over tmr to help YeeMah prepare the ingredients for Penang Laksa. Last week i just told YeeMah i missed her Penang Laksa and she said she'll prepare it when she is back from Ipoh. See, my YeeMah dont lie to me or break her promises. Woohoo~ I'm a happy girl. *screams and jumps* I promised Jiejie i'll sleep early today, but look at the time now 3:36am - Friday. haha. And just now i washed HuaGe's jacket, like finally. I was super scared because i'm in the back balcony, and i kept looking around to make sure no cats is around. haha. Quite scary and tiring, but tmr when the jacket is dry it will smell super nice. *smirks* Alright, i shall turn in soon. Goodnight sweeties. loves`

JY Li : chao recruit! haha. i'm sorry i totally forgot about the dates and stuffs, really sorry. you better take care of yourself okay and drink more water huh. i know everything that you said is true, because you never lie to me before. and yeah man, army makes you a better man. hahaha! i hope i can see a fit zai after 2 weeks. hee... take care!! =)

Mister Etic : where'd you go? i miss you so. *cries*

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Feeling kinda down now, i dont know why. Moodswings? I guess so. Had tuition today, it was really tired. I dont know why. After tuition i wento meet Qing at VivoCity, yes! She came out from JB, and we were super mad. haha. Reached VivoCity and met her friends, friendly people Tracy, Joyce, Teddy and MsCool(i forgot her name). Walked around VivoCity, grab the time to update each other's life and went crazy. haha. Really happy to see her, we had lotsa good times back in Kermayang. Headed down to Bugis around 7pm, walked and slacked around Parco yak and yak non stop. I shall name the 6 of us Yanbulishou(inside story). haha. They left around 8:30pm and took bus back to JB. Oh.. I miss them. I've got something in my mind man, should i ask? Should i go? Can i go? I really wanto go.. Urghh! If i cannot go, i'll whine and cry my weekends away. Anyhow, last few days my house is like a warfield. My modem was "stolen" away and kept for good. I flare my temper almost everyday and my tears roll out the moment i scream or shout. I just hate it laa. When you are angry, you fking vent your anger on me. When you are frustrated or irritated, you fking scold and blame me.Rrigghttt. Everything you do is correct WHAT! I know you are stress, you thought i never think of any ways out? You thought i dont have any plans? Go, go ahead and say whatever you want. Bloody hell. I shall calm myself down and eat Kinder Brueno later. No worries, i'm fine. Till then. I miss you! loves`

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I woke up unwillingly at 10am because i have to pay the O'levels fkingexamination fees today. Met Jonic and wento pay the fees together, it was super warm there and we both were hell hungry. Thank god, it was quite a fast one. Ate LJS and went down to NSQ together with Jonic, slacked around the shop and yes, i'm gonna buy that jacket! And LONSDALE slippers! hahaha. Met Minister and Xueping and headed down to Bugis, walked around Parco while waiting for Lynsey. Xp was talking about guys who are 10years older than me. I was screaming and whining around, saying "I dont like guys who are 10years older!!". haha. You know i know huh. haha. Rene came to join us too, LOCOL huh. Walked over to the Toy Museum and i was super excited laa. I was thinking, i wanted to go there with *coughs* Zun *coughs* or the future one. But nevermind, i still enjoy myself. haha. The admission fee was actually 10$ but i dont know why we all had 20% discount, so it was 7.50$. Woohoo~ Took the rocket lift up to 5th floor to look at OuterSpace toys, 4th floor - Characters (e.g. Batman, Astroboy, Tintin) 3rd floor - Childhood favourites and lastly the 2nd floor for Collectables. The 1st floor dont have much stuffs, and the basement is a cafe. It was quite fun, like the longlong hopscotch, the glass tiles that i was super afraid to step on it, making a fool there, childhood toys and all. haha. I dont mind going the second time. haha. We had Thai food for dinner, i dont know the name of the restaurant. Very much alike to Aroy Restaurant and East Coast Rd. Stepping into the restaurant reminds me of GANBEH, i felt a prick on my heart when i think about him. I hope he can call back soon, please. At least let me know you are safe. Ahh nevermind, back to the food. The Tom Yum soup was nice, baby squids too. Walked to Suntec city, went to MSQ too. I went back to look for my colleagues, only 3 person working at night. Nice one huh. Around 9pm we all slacked at Burger King for some fries. I was quite tired by then. Headed back home around 10:15pm, i think Lynsey's Samsung MP3 is cool laa dey. Alright, i did enjoy myself. I can cancel off the Toy Museum trip off my wishlist now. Goodnight people. loves`

Pictures up here -> Toy Museum!

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I started my day being disturbed, because Aloysius Saw called me early in the morning at 10am. Too bad, you disturbed my sleep so i wont answer your call. haha. So i gave it a miss and wento sleep, being frustrated i off my phone and went back to sleep. Woke up around 2pm, bathed and i thought i should give a call back to Aloysius to ask what happen. Anyhow, at first it was quite nice talking to him about those good old GWC times, updating about each others life, laugh and get mad about the old job. haha. But till the marriage part it was abit nehneh. We could have chatted about more logical stuffs if we minus away the nehneh marriage thing. But okay, at least throughout the whole conversation there were some nice hear-able things. haha. Yeah laa, thanks okay. =) Prepared and wento town with my chummies, searched for presents and they went pooling till 9pm. Had our dinner at Kobayashi and all headed home. I missed my Aja GeumSoon today. Hurr.. nevermind. Mobtv. hee` Thanks to this self claimed super cool guy for accompanying me on the phone when i'm going home. haha. I'm going back to school tmr, i hope i'll have a good time there. Oh fuck, i'm super fuming now. Sometimes guys are nuisance laa, i DONT have to inform you about my whereabouts okay. I DONT have to explain anything to you, and i DONT have to report anything to you. You are in no position to question me, you are nobody to talk to me that way. Stop all this and dont be a nitwit. Wooo~ I'm feeling better now. Alright, i miss my bed now. Goodnight babies. loves`

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Again, it's April a very very CHOR month for me and my chummies because a few birthdayss coming up. haha. I caught Mr Bean's Holiday on Sunday with my cousins at J8. It was duperly funny man. haha. After the movie, train down to Marsiling to look for 8th Uncle and Aunt and we headed down to 6th Aunt house for dinner. Reached home around 9pm, bathed, online and i wento sleep at around 10pm. Again, it was super early. I haven slept so early since i stop schooling, because i dont need to wake up early. haha. But i was really tired that day, i slept till 3pm the next day. Rot my Monday away, thinking about alot of things and there goes my Monday. Today i had tuition and it was great, finally i'm going to town tmr. For the whole of last week, i din go out at all only on Sunday i went out for movie. Save quite alot huh. haha. Tmr am going to town, Thursday to school, Friday to soccer with Granzys wearing our new jerseys and Saturday cycling with the OHs! I hope the cycling will be a success. *crossing fingers* Our OH family is super high tech now, yeah email. CCs and BCCs. haha. Was chatting with Yen a few days back and he is coming to Singapore after his final year. Yes yes! And Qing might be coming out next week. Woohoo~! And AIYA, you made me think love is a nuisance. I dont know what the hell you're doing now, but it just retarded. Maybe it's time for you to reflect and think about how to make things better or end everything now. You know who you are, go think carefully. Nope, i'm not in love or whatever shit. Alright, i'm back to watch my shows now. Oh ya, i've been neglecting someone for a long time. Sorry, i still love you my MMY boyfriend. =) Goodnight sweetsweet. loves`

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALOYSIUS SAW!
4th April 2007
(enjoy your birthday! i'm nice, i didn't put your age here. hahaha!)

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Good morning people. (Time now: 10am) No, i know you are thinking if you should buy lottery today. Dont okay. And NO, i know today is April Fool and i'm not fooling anyone. Perish all thoughts. haha. I woke up at 8am quite willingly despite the fact that i slept at nearly 7am the previous night. Bathed and hopped onto my King's car and wento Yishun Columbarium, today is QingMing and we are all praying to my Emperor(grandpa). We were the first to reach there and none of my cousins or aunts and uncles were there, so i walked around and i regret for washing my hair. Because it's very smoky there and now my hair have got those smell,urgh! Around 9am, almost everyone was there and so the adults do those stuffs and we the younger ones stand aside and chat. haha. Younger ones - Mister Guan, AhZhou, AhHong, Chuan, Candy, Minister, Xueping jiejie, Xueling jiejie, ZhiMing korkor, Rene and me. Yeah, we rock! haha. Actually some are not very young, one is already married - MisterGuan , another one is gonna get married soon - Chuan & Candy. haha. When it's time to burn those incense, the uncles handled the job over to us. haha. Each of us took a stack and started throwing it in, and i tell you it was super hot there. Bbqing, sun tanning oh... whatever, just super hot. haha. Super fun! After that, we went back and they start to clear up the place and we all went home awhile later. Yeahyeahyeah! I still think it's very fun. haha. I'm mad. Am going out later with my cousins! I'll get something back from Candy Empire later. =) Alright, i have to go take a nap now. Dont prank me today. haha. Till then. lovess`

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