It's 02:36am (Sunday) now and i just reached home not long ago. Went for steamboat after work with all my colleagues and PP's people to celebrate Miko's birthday and PP hitting 100% sales target today. It was hell fun i tell you. I was laughing like a mad woman till i started gasping for breathe. haha. MSQ wasnt that bad today, just freaking cold. And they bought 4D because Serene was on MC today. Once in a blue moon okay. haha. Super funny. Then someone broke the nail polish today, and we all rushed to get toilet rolls, nail polish remover and stuffs and started cleaning right away. I love the way we clean up together when something happen, teamwork and the our team spirit is good. But while cleaning , we are cursing and swearing because all our nail polish were gone. Then Auntie started saying "kan" to Dex, because he is a bad guy. Then Dex said something super disgusting and i said "kan ni!" Auntie then continued "kan ni na." haha. Madness. Lunched with Dex and we were freezing to death. Anyhow, tmr will be my last day at MSQ and then i'll prepare for my studies stuffs. MSQ, i'll miss you all. Be it all those laughters and jokes in the shopfloor or outside, those stuffs you all thought me, i'll all remember it. =) Damn, i just finish painting my nails and it's almost 3am already. I have to go sleep already because i'm having morning shift later and i'll be going for the countdown too. So you all have a good new year celebration. Goodnight sweet sweet! loves`

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
BEST WISHES FOR YEAR 2007.
*HUGS AND KISSES*

xoxo`

I'm freaking pissed off now, be it with my Mum, that freako or whatever shit. I'm on a super boiling mood now. And i dont and cannot take ridiculous jokes at the moment, i take them seriously and i might just screw you up. I really dont understand why the hell you asked about my studies and then you dont respect my choice. This is going crazy you know. Dont study, that's the only thing you could tell me. If i were to not study, you might just cry your whole life away and curse me. Damn, i told you my decisions and i know it's all fianancial problems i tred to get the best and cheapest shits but you are still not satisfied. You dont believe a single shit at all, fine. Then let's just shut up okay. I'm being a super bitch here, because my mood is going bonkers. And that freako could just go and die, when he've got money he dont come home. And when he is poor like a beggar, he message or call my Dad and whine to him about it. Why dont he fucking go get a job? Dont he feel pai seh taking money from my Dad all the time and still being rude to him. This is ridiculous right? Your Dad earns money back home, gives you money to spend and yet get screaming from you. I think his gf told him all this umpteen times till she gave up man. (Sorry Grace if you're reading this. i cannot stand him at all.) I just called Mac delivery and let's just hope the meal will make me feel better. Who is by my side when i'm feeling down? Who is the ones whom will stay by my side to support, cheer and console me? All this is just shit and all shit man. I seriously feel very fucked up now. I should just run to my balcony and scream the hell out. Damn everything. I shall go eat my Mac now. GET LOST!!

xoxo`

So yeah, i cried like a retard yesterday night. My player played Jay's song and i started weeping like i just broke up. Crazy, just so crazy. Anyhow, MSQ was super fun today. Serene(2nd sup.) went for lunch alone leaving us alone. Lao Chio off, Auntie off, Amy went PP. So the shop was left with Miko, Kiki, Lin, Dex, Joan and me. We all were chatting happily, playing around and doing retarded things. haha. How nice... haha. Closing was at 9:30pm, and i ran to SL to get my ordered food. I could get it for free, but i said no. And yeah, the whole shop starts to disturb me with Mrs Tempura, or Mrs SL. Then from now, they want me to go SL to order food. This is ridiculous man. Disgusting. haha.Alright, enough of all those shits. I start to miss Taiwan taiwan again. I miss the food, the amusement park, the hotels, tea egg and all. Oh my, and i suddenly feel like flying to Sydney now. Or say, Paris or London. Tsk, dreaming. And YOU, please know what to do, what to say and when to appear ya. Everything is on YOU alone now, prove it alright? I'll remember what YOU told me before. And i promise to be a good girl from now. =) I have to go sleep now. Goodnight honeys. loves`

"Bring me to a faraway land with just only you and me."

xoxo`

I should be happy today, but i'm very very pissed off with my Mum. Urgh! Forget it. Today wento Sentosa with my classmates, played in the rain, played some ball games and slacked. Then it started raining heavily and we went for dinner and blahblahblah. I will miss all of them. =) Headed down to Chew's house for mahjong and was having fun but when Mum called, everything was so sucky. Yesterday i wento visit Baby Jayrel, like finally. Left MSQ with Sha and took train down to Khatib and cabbed to Korkor's house. When i reached, Jiejie opened the door for me and i saw Baby Jayrel lying on his bed drinking milk. And i was shocked and said "baby! how come you become so long?" haha. He really grew alot man. Tummy bigger, taller, noisier, and of course more handsome and cute. He kept smiling and grabbed my fingers tightly. I was watching the 9pm show and he started screaming and wanted someone to carry him. So i carried him and his was moving around here and there till i was so scared and i out him down. He sat in the "baby car" and started playing his own game. haha. Super cute please. YeeMah and YeeChang was back and when Baby Jayrel saw YeeChang, he started smiling. Only he can carry Baby Jayrel around and play with him without hearing him scream. How cute. Jiejie(2) came back and we started chatting, i cried and stuffs. I seriously love all of them loads. Thanks! I'm having noon shift tmr, but i'm not excited to go MSQ at all. I dont know why. Sighh.. I started thinking about ___ again for i dont know why. ___ started to fill my mind everyday and i cried in the night for ___. I know this is not gonna be good, but why must ___ appear in my mind again? I thought i'm gonna be alright, but no this is going no where. Everything is getting worst as days passed by and i one day i might not be able to take it. I'll just cry my whole day away because of ___. I know it wont be possible at all, but i dont know why you kept appearing in my mind. I'm not suppose to feel this way. But you know, you just suddenly appear in my mind again and made me crazy. I really dont know what to do. Can you tell me how? *cries!* My mood is so screw up now, tears! Screw please! I'm gonna cry to sleep tonight. Goodnight people. loves and misses!



look at Baby Jayrel's hair. Cool baby yeah!

"You gave me too much slacks, and now you are pulling me back to your side."

xoxo`

My christmas was spent pretty well. Morning shift, whine and nagged like retarded. Met Granzys, Puffys and Jonic at City Hall and trained down to Dhoby Ghaut. Walked down to Orchard, bought spray cans and our barganing style is superb. Countdown was alright, saw a fight outside Cineleisure and i was super scared and it reminds me of someone. While walking to the coffeshop, this whole gang of bengbengs were walking over and shouting about the fight just now. I am so scared that they'll start the fight beside me, i tell you i will just scream and cry. Saw my COUSIN! Mister OhKS, like finally. haha. Anyhow, slacked at the coffeshop for awhile and all headed to Chew's house. After i bathed, i fell asleep on the sofa and blahblahblah. Nothing much happen at MSQ, and i dont wanto talk about it too. On 23rd December 2006, i wento attend a LONG related cousin's wedding at Swissotel. I was super excited and my heels were killing me. Saw Mister LeeChangDa when i reached, then went in and i saw a hundred plus tables and i got mad. Sat with all my aunts and anticipated for the dinner to start. I love the video so so much please. ChangDa and all were smartly dressed and looking cool. =) Now i'm super tired, morning shift again tmr. I want you to call me again and chat till the wee hours. I want you to suddenly message me and ask about my whereabouts. I want you to tell me so so so many things! Tsk, now you know this is how much i miss you right? Nerner. I miss your voice man. *huggs* And thanks for all the presents and messages, love you all! =) Alright, Goodnight sweets! loves`

"Being kept alive by the emptiness."
"If only i could always be your good girl."

xoxo`

The good thing is that my Dowager have been discharge from the hospital today. She is alright now. =) Noon shift today and i was late, briefing was retardedly mad because Amy was the one doing the briefing. So we have did shits like betting, guessing which shop din hit yesterday, recordings and played with samples. Our sales today is very good 9k plus, and Jonic came to MSQ today. Then lunch-ed with Joan, we talked a lot and she is very good to me. Closing at 10:10pm, talked and slacked in the office and left the shop around 10:40pm. Walked to the train station together with Amy, Dex and Sha. Slacked outside the train station and waited for them to finish their cigs. Amy was super funny and crazy, i almost went crazy with her. And when the train reached Orchard's station, i saw Aloysius boarding the train in another cabin. Messaged each other and i went super high, because he dont know we are in the same train just that we are in different cabins. Although he is in WA now, we can still take the train home together. At least i dont have to go home alone when Rene and me are having different shifts. I can actaully call and say "yopsehyoh, what time you finish work today? blahblahblah..." And tada, i've someone to accompany me to take train home. Yipppes! And yesterday, i spend my day in the hospital from 1pm till 8pm at night together with my Queen, godma, wj and minister. Accompanied my Dowager, waited for her to do x-rays talked to her, went around eating, tea breaks in the hospital. Met Jonic yesterday at Novena Square too. Anyway, thanks to all whom stand by my side these past few days. And thanks to those messages and concerns, i'm better now. Although tears are still gushing out, but i'll be fine. =) I'm meeting Jiejie soon and that means i can hug Baby Jayrel and superman him around! Mornigh shift tmr, Goodnight people. loves`

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG NUZLI!!
21.12.2006
i miss you abang! hot cakes breakfast soon eh. =)

"Just open your door for a better tomorrow."

xoxo`

My king sent me to PP today and i slept in the car. Around 4pm, went back to MSQ because Sue wasnt feeling good. Joan gave me xmas present, thanks babe! I was building castles in the air for like very long, Dex came over and asked me what happen. I shook my head and smile. I cried when i leave MSQ, because my Queen said that my Dowager is gonna stay in the hospital. Actually around 12pm, i got to know that my Dowager was in the hospital already. Because she was giddy and vomitting. But i did call and check about her condition, but i din expect that she have to stay in the hospital for a few days. And this is the first time she was admitted to the hospital. So i cried when telling Joan, she talked to me and my tears gushed out. Dex saw me crying after his smoke break and he got shock. Joan told me "Girl, must be strong. cannot cry already okay. dont cry.. " and she wiped off my tears. I love Joan so so much can. =) Went over to WA for awhile, when i came out from the ladies i saw Aloysius. Chatted for awhile, looked for Rene, blahblahblah and went down to TTSH. Quite alot of my family members were there, Dowager was much much better. Then the doctor talk to my Dowager and said she have alot of childrens. Then she proudly said "i've nine sons and one daughter!" haha. Tmr they are gonna do a blood test on her and see how it goes, and if things are alright she can be discharge maybe the day after. Tmr i'm having off day, i gonna go accompany my Dowager with my cousins and rot my day away at the hospital. Korkor called me today again and i told him, i miss Baby Jayrel alot and i told him to come fetch me over to visit Baby Jayrel. He steadily said okay. But nahh, i was at the hospital that time. But i'm gonna visit Baby Jayrel soon. So ya, Baby wait for me okay. =) A few of you asked me to promise not to cry again, i cant promise it. Really, i'm sorry. Just let me cry and i'll be fine okay? Thanks for all the care and concerns. Alright, Goodnight darlings. loves!

xoxo`

Today just isnt a good day. I dragged myself to MSQ and did some shits there. I was kinda happy, but after that my mood went down. Super down. I cried like nobody's business. I know, it's not point crying now. But i couldn't believe it was so bad. I called my King and cried to him, then i called my Minister but he missed that call, after that i called Old Man and cried to him. I made them worry, i made them go crazy. I know hearing someone cry and not being by their side will get you mad. Called Jonic and others to inform them about it. When i was on my way home, my Queen called and i cried in the bus. I disappointed her, Sorry.. I disappointed so many people around me. Sigghh.. Everyone whom i called or called me, heard me crying like a retard. I'm sucha loser, i cant do anything but cry to them. Mmmms, went out to meet Granzys and Puffys, dined with them. I will seriously miss you all. And you all will always be there for me. Right Granzys? Thanks for giving me tissue when i cry, thanks for being by my side when i'm sad. Tolerating all my craps and shits, feeding me when laziness acts on me, entertaining me and cheering me up. There is so many thank yous i wanto tell you all, nothing can explain how much we care for each other. THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU ALL!! Sometimes i might call and cry or whine to you, please bear with it okay. I'll be fine after that. For now, i just wanto stop working and decide about my stuffs. My mood is like the weather today, rain, rain and rain. I wanto hug so so many people now. My parents, cousins, sweetiepies, darlings and all. "A hug is what you need." -> Titus, i agree with you. Sighh.. Goodnight sweeties. loves!

my king : "dont cry. come back and we'll discuss about it okay?"
my queen : "i wont scold you, dont cry anymore. be good."
old man : "take care and make a wise decision."
minister : "dont cry anymore. relax.. i'm very worried for you."
jonic : "calm down.."
godma : "decide carefully alright? dont cry anymore."
kor kor(cousin) : "dont give up ya."
joan : "girl, dont cry okay. hush hush.."
granzys : "no matter what, be strong."
and loads more... this is what they told me when i cried to them. Thank you people, thanks for all your care and concern. I'll be strong..

xoxo`

Oh.. Both my legs are aching like hell now. I wento Parkway Parade to help out today, fking far please. I have to leave my house super early, take train to Woodlands and take bus over. It was around one and a half hours journey there. And when i reached, i called over to ask for directions again. haha. PP's people are friendly, and we all clicked very well. haha. We always look eye to eye when there is a very fussy customer and we kept talking and laughing. haha. PP is small, just like GWC. How i miss GWC's storeroom, shopfloor and all the craps i did there. *sobs* Anyway, i left PP at aaround 7pm. Wento get my contact lense because i wore my current one from mid-September till now. I'm very proud to tell all the optician that. And all of them will say "ya, blind then you'll know." haha. The first shop i went, dont sell a pair, they sell in boxes. So i wento the other shop, they sell in boxes too. The optician is super super ganchiong. He kept asking me the wrong things, like when he is suppose to ask for my degree, he asked for my specs. I got discount for 3 pair of lenses. Then after i pay for my lenses, i suddenly remembered i need to get solution too. I was like "oh shit! i need solution too." The guy went in and get a bottle for me and said "this one i give you." I said "give me? oh.. okay. thanks alot." haha. Tan tio right. haha. Took bus back and reached home around 9pm. Thursday, after work at MSQ, Amy( Asst. Manager), Sue, Miko, Auntie, Jasline and me went over to MakanSutra for supper. haha. Vivian joined us later. We ordered 11plates of food and we ate like mad. haha. Super fun. Laughed at a lot of things and everyone was crazy. Chatted till around 1:30am, cabbed back home. Friday, i did morning shift. Damn, i was late again. haha. I was having cramps till i almost die. 25 cartons of stocks came in and i sort out the nail diamonds till i wanto cry. Went shopping with Miko after work and bought 3tops at e-base, less than 20$. haha. The day before, wento ESPIRIT bought 2 tops using staff discount. I'm like starting to shop everyday. haha. Anyway, i'm gonna tender my resignation soon. Because i still wanto enjoy my holidays, mahjong, gaigai and rest. Plus i'm getting my results on Monday, please pray for me. Thank you! =) Alright, i gotta stop here. Goodnight honey babies. loves`

HEY YOU, I MISS YOU ALOT OKAY.*hugs and kisses*

xoxo`

Wynny is a happy girl today. haha. But minus away the part where my 2nd sup. almost fuck me up. I woke up this morning, and i took my temperature. Phew~, i'm back to normal. Not a sick woman anymore. haha. Walked super fast to MSQ, punched my card and woohoo, accuratly at 1300. I always rush to MSQ and i always reach on the dot. I was never early before. I looked at my card today and i found out i was late for 3 times since 4th December till now. A few minutes late, like 3 minutes or 5 minutes. The worst was ermm.. 15minutes. haha. Lunch-ed with Joan, SAKAE SUSHI! I love Joan. haha. She treated me again, pai seh laa. We actually had a deal that i have to help her sell a 500$ SUISSE Prog skincare set and she'll treat me SAKAE. But i haven even sell the set, she already treat me. So i must really help her. Wynny, jia you! =) Lynn and me were super funny, we kept laughing today. haha. Godma visited me today at MSQ. I love my Godma. And i might be meeting her for breakfast at Tiong Bahru tmr morning. Anyhow, Dex taught me something today. I told him i'm very scared that things will get chaotic, so he started telling me some stuffs to calm me down and taught me good things. Weird right, Ah herng(Dex) actually can teach me good things. haha. Left MSQ around 9:15pm, went down to WA to look for Rene. Cool laa. Aloy was there, and at first i was trying to avoid him cause he was serving customer. Chatted with Rene and she went in to get some stuffs. Aloy saw me, "ehhh!!! Ah girl.." . So so friendly huh, or maybe passionate. haha. He then put his hand on my head, pulling me nearer to him. Because i was standing some distance away from him. haha. Oh my, my hand was touching his waist already laa. So shy can. haha. We chatted like good friends, asked about GWC stuffs, and some BA's were looking at us with the blur look. haha. He then grabbed my hand and tell Gigi "hey, this is my sister." I paused for a few seconds and i said "heehee, this is my father!." haha. Serious okay, he is __ years old and wants to be my brother. haha. Then my name will be like WYNNY SAW. And my full name is Wynny Saw Some Thing.haha. Lame. But to think again, being his daughter my surname is SAW too. haha. Crap laa. I then told him about Kenny Rogers, Val and him got so high and started discussing about it. haha. Because in GWC i always buy Mac Cheese and he loves Kenny Rogers too. haha. Shopped at WA, super cool. A good friend of WA. haha. Who carries a box of underwear home without a carrier or anything? Who takes out a new underwear and put it high up in the air to look at the sizes in a very crowded place? Oh please, i shouldnt reveal the name out. He is still single, i'm afraid after i say it out girls might avoid him. haha. Rene! You know i know. haha. Isetan. haha. Alright, it's my off day tmr. Thanks for those concerns and messages. *Huggs* Goodnight, my sweet little darling. I'll smile to sleep tonight. loves`

"It's never too late to relight the fire between us."

xoxo`

I haven been updating this shit for a few days. Anyway i think only a few souls visits my blog, should close it down soon laa. Agree? Oh, last few days in MSQ was alright. Friday lunched with Dex and closing at 10:15pm. Saturday morning shift, lunched with Lynn and Rene visited me at night. Had Andersen's Ice Cream with Fiona(promoter) and Rene. Dex's treat, because we helped him. But today, i found out we actually din help much. haha. Yesterday was morning shift again, tired can. And yesterday sucks please, i hate it laa. Dex was on MC because he is a nerner, Joan and me was hungry like hell and we both were going mad. Today was better, 2nd sup. off Amy was here. The atmosphere was seriously better. We could laughed happily in the shopfloor, joked around and everyone was mad. Read alot alot on POUR HOMME's stuffs, like i'm taking exams soon. haha. Closing was super early today, 9:45pm. haha. See.. When Amy is around everything will be fine. haha. We were all eating some snacks in the room while waiting for Amy to pack her stuffs. haha. Food fair. Then after closing we all, 7 of us, wento Mac's and Amy bought ice cream for us. haha. So it was super funny, 7 people each holding and licking the ice cream will walking out of MSQ. haha. Miko is a nice girl to chat with and she is very nice, Joan is not fierce at all laa. haha. But i still miss GWC alot alot okay, and Aloy dont ask so much okay. haha. Dont ever try digging anything from Rene hor. haha. Laughs! Oh, i know my temper is going worst recently. Not PMS for sure. I dont know why also, but i can sense my temper going worst. I so feel like screaming at THIS person and scold everything out. Screw, i think i'm having fever now. Because i just took my temperature and it is 37.9. Tsktsktsk.. Wynny, you are so weak. Go bang yourself on the wall. haha. Alright, Goodnight honeys. loves`

xoxo`

I'm dead tired. My legs are super painful, i'm having flu and slight cough. Someone please tell me, i'll recover tmr morning. I dont wanto fall sick at this time, when Auntie is not around and i have to do those stocks alone tmr. (you all better help me, if not i'll cry in the storeroom.hee`) I dont mind having flu, but the cough is torturing me. No chips, no chocolate and no fried food. Oh my... *screams* MSQ was freaking cold today, i was freezing to death. Then i told Jasline(lao chio) that i am very cold, she brought me to BLOOM's corner and asked me to touch some lightings cardboard. It was warm and so nice. I love it. Lunched with Su at Cavana and met one of her friend. Closing was early today, 9:45pm. Left MSQ around 10pm together with Serene(2nd sup.) and Su. My King fetched me at Khatib and i was craving for chips. But nahh... nevermind. Suprise visit from Lynsey when i was standby-ing at POUR HOMME's corner. Will be meeting Rene for lunch tmr, and on Saturday MSQ is having midnight sales. I'm having morning shift that day, BUT they put me on standby for midnight sales. God bless me please. haha. My mood is still very sucky. I dont know why. Alright, Goodnight sweeties. loves`

"Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

xoxo`

I lunched with Rene yesterday and left for MSQ. Revealing-of-the-secret mission = Failed. Reached MSQ and blahblahblah, then everyone was asking me about MoS party because i'm heading down to MoS with my chums after work. Auntie asked and i know she is actually worried, then Dex being kpo asked and talked about it too. So the whole day Dex and me was chatting about clubbing stuffs. And i gotta know some not very nice stuffs and i was horrified when he told me. I was like "serious? this kinda stuffs happen?" haha. Like a kuku, i know. Break time was with Joan, she is very good. I'll treat her a meal next time. haha. Left at 10pm with constant reminder from Auntie and Dex to be careful. Dex told me alot of times can, he pulled up the shutter for me and mumbled "careful ah." Okay, appreciated. But another SYN. haha. Jonic and Chew waited for me to finish work and wento Macs to meet Nehneh all and headed down to MoS. MoS was super squeezy but it was fun. Dancing with my chums all, bua-ing, lesles and laughing at how people dance. haha. Reached home around 5:15am, bathed and sleep. Woke up at 11:30am today, it's my off day. Went out with ALL my chums, ate Ramen, watched Just Friends, took photo stickers. They rocks! =) Left them around 6:15pm and wento look for Rene at WA. Again, Revealing-of-the-secret mission = Failed. haha. Headed down to Bugis to meet the OH'S and Billy Bombers and ate. Because it is my Minister's birthday. haha. Wento C.A.N Cafe to have a drink and slacked again. Anyhow, i'm not in very good mood now. Screw. Why this way? You dont care then shut up. Dont add salt to the wound and act as if nothing had happen. What the fuck is this? Your attidude made me despise you. I dont know why you became this way. Urghh! Goodnight.

"Your voice has engraved itself into my memory."

xoxo`

I'M BACK! haha. I was back on Saturday night laa, but i was super tired to blog. And i dont know how to blog about my Taiwan taiwan, but still, i'll blog maybe next week or so. Retarded. haha. I still miss Taiwan very very much, especially the shows there. haha. Anyhow, today's my first day at MSQ. Not that bad, but super boring. But at least Dex and Auntie kept talking to me so i wont feel bored. Dont wanto talk much about MSQ. But some funny thing, Aloy was transfer back to WA and Sharon Lee was back to GWC. I dont know why. Rene and Aloy is super funny. haha. Gonna surprise him tmr at WA. haha. My mood is crucial again laa, i dont know why. Firstly, i miss GWC. Secondly, I dont like my feelings now. Lastly, somehow there is this one person whom is always in my mind the whole day. I cannot find out the reason why that person is revolving around my mind, this sucks. Sometimes i wished that i could stay in Taiwan and not come back to Singapore. Yes, but maybe this is just for the time being. Still holiday mood ma. Alright i gotta stop here already, i seriously miss drinking aiyubing now. Urghh. Goodnight sweet sweet. loves`

I miss you, you should know who you are.

xoxo`