I dont want this kinda stupid feelings , i dont wanto appear weak . I just wanto live everyday happily . I felt like a depressed woman whenever i'm alone, i start to think alot and hate myself alot . Do you , you , and you even cared ? I just dont understand why things have to be in this way . I just cant stop my tears from rolling down every night . I can feel the pain again, it dont feel good. It made me cried so badly for the past few nights . Urgh! Last few days were like the same, the only difference was Wynny freaked out after watching Incredible Tales on Wednesday night . I tell you, it's damn scary laa. Then after the show, i was thinking, "Damn, Wynny . Now you cant go online, because you're afraid of being alone. Mum and Dad is sleeping soon . " So i climbed up my bed damn early and i cant sleep . Messaged AhDi and he was eerie too, he wanted to send his spirits to protect me . haha . I seriously can weewee on my bed man . Anyhow the next morning i was damn scared , i woke up alone and prepared myself for school . Then when i was alone in the dinning room, i kinda felt really scared . Because my dinning room have got a real big mirror and that makes me think of a scene in the show . So i quickly run to my parent's room and asked my Dad to bring me down . haha . Dad said "watch more incredible tales laa.." haha . Blah... Went FarEast and Bugis today with Gransazers and co, i want to buy a lot of things can . How i wish i'm rich.. Ya, i know i can stop dreaming . Saw Jiejie and Dennis Korkor in the train, wanted to watch Baby Jayrel's video. But they alighted at City Hall . *frowns* Gransazers are having soccer game tmr , am thinking if i should go and play . haha . Having gathering at Godma's house tmr!! Like finally man!! I am so gay.. Recently, i dream alot and i wake up being damn sad . I dont know why too.. My dream may be very nice but when i wake up, i realised it was totally a catastrophe. I wanto go to the beach, write all my sorrows in a paper then put it into a bottle and let my sorrows be washed faraway . I want , I want!! I wanto eat chocolates too, eating chocolates made me felt a lot more better . I dont know what to type anymore and yes i still get agitated easily . Sometimes i just cant stand the way some people speak , and think . I'll just get pissed off and start punching you . Just like what Nehneh always get from me.. haha . Goodnight people. <3


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Today is Chuan and Candy's solemnisation day. CONGRATS!! =)
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"Memories kept flooding back like tears."

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