Sighh.. Bad things happened again. Look at the date again, it's 17th please. Damn. I hate it. Let's talk about GWC today first, with my retarded expressions on my face and my stupid eyes, i managed to drag myself to GWC. Gave my very first smile to Joannie, changed and listened to the briefing. I haven even put on any make-up they wanto check my grooming. Aloy was checking on some stuffs, so when Syidah check me i ask her to say i everything also have. I know this is bad, but yeah.. no choice. Did cleaning again, because sudden call from Wendy saying Tania is coming to GWC. Narbei. False alarm laa. But still have to thank Wendy for informing us. Lunched with Joannie at Mac, actually only one person can go lunch and we have to eat our lunch outside. No more eating in the storeroom. But we asked Aloy and he allowed. =) Karin came over to help and we cleared alot of unwanted stuffs in the storeroom, i cleaned the whole cashier counter. So shiny. I kept wiping the counter and suddenly Aloy squeezed in to dont know do what. So squeezy please. Then we make noise again then blahblahblah.. My mood was seriously better at GWC, i smiled, i laughed and i'm kinda okay. But there is always this few minutes i'll play with Mr.Stone and tears will start to clot around my eyes. Sigh.. Tmr morning shift and i'm looking forward to it. Anyhow, this is a really sad part. No other words can explain my feelings. I received this very heartbreaking message at around 5am, i was soundly asleep. I woke up and read the message, i started crying and crying and repetedly looked at the message for i dont know how many times. I looked at my clock and it was around 8plus in the morning, so for the past hours i was thinking of what to reply and how to reply. Anyway, the replying part is not important. So i cried and cried all the way till 11plus and prepared for GWC. I let everyone down, i think. Everyone was waiting for my good news. But in the end it isnt a good news at all. I dont know what else to say and what to do. This sucks, things are super bad now. MSQ stuffs already made me cry like mad, now this kinda things come out. When can i stop crying and when can all this stop? Sigh.. Thanks to those whom constantly send in message to see if i'm okay. Thanks! Read the entry above and....pray for me.

xoxo`