Oh damn, i'm so pissed off and fed up now. I made my parents super stressed up, i made myself crazy and stress. I just dont know what else can i do. Alright, i just attended my tuition just now and i quite like it. Amston was together with me too, at least i'm not alone. And we might be taking it together too. Had a nice chat with him and, cheer up laa brother. =) Gonna go out to meet my chums later for dinner, and then we're gonna start school and stuffs. But i made my parents so stress, it's not that i never think of the consequences know. I was afraid to talk about this again, but i've no choice. You can say it's my determination, it's my sturborness or anything. I dont care. I know i'm bombing you all now, but please at least think of how i feel, think about my future, think more. Dont be so simple minded, things are much more complicated. I really dont know what to say to you all anymore. Because in the end, i'll be crying and you both will be stressed up and sighing. You want me to study and work at the same time, just because if i do that i wont have to worry about my financial problems. But have you ever thought, will life be easier for me if i do that. Will i be able to study and work at the same time. Then you all start to blame others, why the fuck do you have to always blame others? Will it make you feel better? I really dont know what you are thinking, i thought i'll get support from you. Now, what have i got? I only got tears, scoldings, screamings and forcings. "Dont study." You always say that to me, i really wonder know. If you really mean it. What i i really dont study, will you be happier? Will everything be better?Sometimes, i really hate to talk to you. And i start to hate coming home. I dont know why. I dont if i should say "why are my parents not understanding." or i should say "why are my parents discouraging me now." On the other hand, YOU said YOU wont leave me alone. How nice of you to say such stuffs right? And now you are leaving me alone. I dont need all your fkup promises or so anymore. Thanks to you, i'm gonna tell myself to live independently from now on. Damn! Enough of all this, because nobody is gonna read this screwed up post and nobody is gonna care. I'm going out soon. Nah... i wont appear sad. I shan't spoil the mood. You screwed up your own life, loser. Wynny, go bang yourself on the walls.

xoxo`